Religiosity has been highly corrosive to my personal spiritual path. Although I avoided religion for most of my life, I fell into certain dark sects of KS which deeply affected me.
It took me some time to realize how dense and heavy this stuff was, and how much it was weighing me down from higher potentials that I could aim for and even reach. I just didn’t expect it to be this way. Some of the content in the Teachings is so pure, I didn’t expect things built around it to be so much less.
There was one red flag that happened twice which really began waking me up.
During the dark days of winter, in the naïve moments where I thought I had freed myself from anti-Kryst manipulations and corruptions and didn’t have to look over my shoulder anymore, I realized I had a calling to return to my own little core of Happiness inside myself. I used to be in touch with this carefree Happiness when I was young but lost it along the way in this Veca.
So this was another aspect of me “healing back to myself.” Healing back to my Original State instead of “force-fixing myself” or becoming something “new and improved.”
I just wanted to be happy … again … like I once was.
The Strangulation of Joy
Some years ago I had studied Marie Kondo’s work, the KonMari Method, and basically this is what I now needed to do — not with clutter in my environment, but with the clutter in my field and my attention and my priorities. I needed to clear out energetic dead weight so that I could focus on Sparking Joy in my consciousness.
When I mentioned this to one person, the unexpected response was to not succumb to astral bliss… I didn’t even know what to say back to that. It’s not what I was talking about.
I mentioned my Pursuit of Happiness to another person, and got a similarly dreary response — with a heavy dose of mechanical obsessions that deviated so far away from what I was even talking about there was no longer any happiness in sight…
How lifeless and guarded these perspectives were, that the first thought upon hearing “happiness” or “joy” is some cheap, hollow facsimile that no one in their right mind actually wants and which I was never alluding to in the first place. (The inability of “spiritual people” to read and perceive the fine essence of Energy and Energetics is another big red flag I had to acknowledge. People being so blind to things which were so blaring to me.)
Maybe these wayward souls thought they were “warning me” with “precautions,” but it was just so out of touch and irrelevant to my state of consciousness and the frequency I was actually conveying. This is what started to clue me in on how I could articulate something simple and pure, but other people couldn’t even receive it or perceive it. So what was the true focus and priority for them? Other things, apparently. Which, in the process of conversation, converted simple purities into tone-deaf nonsense and left us both talking at our own brick walls.
Being in this “spiritual realm of spiritual people” made me feel so out of place. I really was so out of place. All this talk about “Kryst” but very little “living the Joy of Kryst.”
It was extremely disorienting to be speaking to people who were living in a whole different realm, one that isn’t so great or even tuned into to basic fundamentals. Maybe it’s right for them, but it was so wrong for me — in spite it being so righteous. This is how I started to realize I had my own world and level of reality available to me, one that was a good deal lighter and more peaceful and genuinely tailored to my path and my consciousness, compared to KS Righteousness.
The mistake I kept making was getting sucked into this lower, dreary realm outside of myself because it was “so right about things” so “how could it be wrong?” — and then fighting with it to try to make it better, when really it didn’t want to become better and my fight was futile and only drained my own energy.
The deeper mistake I was making was falling for a Luciferian façade: the KS Swamp shouts about Kryst from the rooftops, so I took it at face value and assumed that’s the energy that would be available throughout the KS World. But the energy was a lot “denser than Kryst,” and even very reversed and dark in certain pockets.
It talked about all the right things, but without any of the right essence. All Light, no Kryst. Being told one thing but getting something else. Bait and switched.
This duplicity is a primary tactic of Luciferian Evil: fluffing you up with grand promises about how great things will be for you, while sliding in something else inferior — something else self-serving, at your expense. A cunning tit-for-tat that betrays the Finite-Life, Bi-Veca, Duality-based, Metatronic tactics still occurring in the Name of Kryst. (And “out there,” if fluffing you up doesn’t work to convince you of Luciferian Superiority, then it may engage in tactics to frighten you into submission via cornering you and coercing you and controlling you, making undue demands of you.)
Reconciling the righteous façade with the discordant energy was very hard for me (yet also something I had to confront to begin healing a major issue in myself).
In retrospect, I think this split is the main thing that made me so angry so many times, because I had wounding around being deceived that left my subconscious fear complex feeling very threatened. I couldn’t really get a grip on this until quitting the KS Religion. Only “out here,” where my Spirit is free and not suffocating, have I been able to integrate the wounds and sternly look Lucifer in the eyes, instead of fighting for my life.
Out here, I can simply Live.
There is so much dark irony with the KS Religion, compared to the Kryst it strangles by the neck while shouting “See, we’ve got it, look at this great thing we’ve got over here that’s not over there!” Yeah, they got it, and it’s been strangled to death. Eternal Life strangled to Death to the point where it feels lifeless to even think about KS. Quite the achievement.
Spark It or Lose It
The Freedom Teachings has a whole workshop on Joy.
So what’s telling about KS religiosity is how some attitudes will obsess over soul-numbing techniques and braindead mechanics and do-this and avoid-thats, while ignoring some of the most fundamental qualities of consciousness — some of the most fundamental aspects of God.
Things like pure Joy and simple Happiness. (Or at least some degree of inner Wholeness and At-One-Ment with things. No one has to be “happy” all the time, but there should be a sense of existential “wholeness.”)
If you can cultivate these states inside yourself (especially regardless what’s going on around you, maintaining your State of Being no matter what’s happening, at least for little durations of time) then you’re onto something, spiritually speaking. You’ve defeated all the forces who want to bring you down into their lairs of entropy, density, and duplicity.
And it’s not even about defeating something outside of you. It’s about re-becoming something intrinsic inside of you, which then consequentially rebuffs dense things outside of you. (Look at that, mechanics actually at work, instead of just being mentally obsessed over.) So it’s about returning to your true nature. Returning to the most exquisite potential of your consciousness, which is made in the joyous Image of God’s Consciousness.
This is the paradoxical apex of Spirituality: becoming what you always had been.
While techniques and disciplines have their place and value, there is more spirituality in feeling a moment of Joy, than there is in being lifeless and heartless and obsessing over “doing the right thing” to “fix yourself” to “achieve XYZ.” That’s just the ManA gone mad.
“Ascending” from a state of mechanical obsession is less spiritual than Spacedust with a smile on your face. (Let that sink in.) To be Eternally Alive without even being able to be Happy, is not what God dreamed of for us.
Moreover, “Sparking Joy” holds such allure in the Collective Consciousness precisely because it does touch on basic mechanics of Creation. “Sparking” is exactly what the core levels of Creation (Partiki) are doing when they are functioning in original, Eternal fashion.
The Masculine-ManA polarity and Feminine-EirA polarity spark together and then phase up into ManU Neutrality, to breathe-with-God’s-currents before coming back down and breathing back out into Creation, in-union with even greater quantum than they left with.
And then this cycle repeats endlessly and eternally — incessantly and ecstatically. This sparking is joyous. Even orgasmic. This is Life That Doesn’t Die.
So I realized I needed to bring some Life back into my life, and the KS Religion was preventing me from doing that. Quite the irony.
There is more Spark Of Life in a simple-but-eternal moment of Joy or Wholeness, than in obsessing over any of the mechanics or techniques. The mechanics must be lived. Or else they’re dead and meaningless.
And since Creation is self-functioning and Consciousness is self-experiencing, something like Joy or Wholeness or At-One-Ment is proof that the mechanics are functioning to some degree inside yourself — and also means you can intuitively re-find and return to this functional part of yourself.
One of the biggest blindspots and issues with the KS Religion is ignoring the fact that consciousness is ALIVE and that a person can figure out Spirituality intuitively, without obsessing over all the technicals or mechanics or nonsense outside of themselves.
Life can be lived intuitively. That’s an important thing to realize.
Yes, we were supposed to have more innate awareness about how Creation works, and that’s where The Freedom Teachings fill in the gaps. But if you just truly listen to yourself and take note of Life’s signals and reflections in your personal hologram, you’ll “figure it out” more than anything outside you can ever inform you. Because Creation is alive inside of you. Out of all the FT Workshops I’ve watched, I still don’t remember/comprehend the majority of it, and I don’t care. The parts I actually need are alive inside of me, and the parts I don’t need in order to live, don’t even fit into my memory.
If you’re obsessing over mechanics like a military ritual, yet not feeling something divine from them, and not experiencing some sort of basic results like contentment and ease in your life, well … how can that be considered Life? It might be “right,” but it’s lifeless — which proves it’s not actually right at all. It’s a living death, seemingly no better than Metatronic Finite Life. (At least Finite Life has bliss on the menu compared to the KS Military Academy!)
Perhaps not surprisingly, it is the Corrupt Masculine-ManA branch of the KS Religion which is so righteous while being so lifeless. All stuck up in the head and obsessed about “doing XYZ” with no sane awareness about Beingness. This is the ManA-Masculine which doesn’t co-spark with the EirA-Feminine, and instead often encounters conflict and disharmony with its counterpart energy which it was supposed to function in-union with.
Contrary to this rogue Male-Masculine-Patriarchal Religion, it’s very apt that Speaker 2, Michael, once pointed out how Techniques are merely 10-20% of the point & purpose, while Embodiment is 80-90%. (I have the exact quote/screenshot somewhere and will have to find it.)
What he’s saying is that Spirituality must be lived. You can’t do-fix-control yourself into Living. You have to step back and dare to Be Alive. Michael’s Return to Innocence essays touch on this in his own way.
The techniques are not “a way of life.” Rather, the only real value the techniques have, are for getting you back to Life — back to Innocence.
LIFE is the way of life. You think Beings in Aquareion are techniquing themselves to death? No, they’re living. I sense they basically have no need for techniques, because there’s basically no deviation from Divine Design. They don’t even need to study Creation, because they’re living it.
So if you can just pause for a moment and get into the still center of yourself, you might find that you have more Life inside you than you thought. And that it’s more available to you, than anything outside of you can ever procure for you. A little spark that has never truly died, only been obscured. And if you can’t find it right now, you might realize that you remember it, no matter how faint. And that faint remembrance is still your strongest guiding light. That remembrance can return you to spiritual actualization.
The New Age wants us to hand over our quantum in exchange for some bliss…
Religion — exploiting Kryst as it always has — wants us to submit to fear and forget about “petty inconvenient things” like happiness which it dismisses…
But in the end, God just wants us to find a little Joy & Happiness. Or at least a little Wholeness. To heal ourselves by feeling all of our feelings, good and bad, and then find out how it really feels to Be God and to have God residing right here within us.
There’s a Spark of Joy waiting for all of us.
And if something doesn’t spark Joy or some sense of existential At-Onement, is it even sparking Life?
Addendum 1: Soul Contribution
Michael also understood the necessity of pursuing an “inward spiritual life” and avoiding the clutter of the world.
Excerpts from Return to Innocence 2:
"“Fake” is the state of our world; fake money, fake desires, fake wealth, fake ideas, fake interest rates, fake cars, fake lives, etc. No blame is suggested nor is it discretely implied. Serfdom, which is what we all suffer, exists everywhere, crushing ‘spirit’ right left and centre, allowing no time for recovery, reflection and consideration of ideas we might want to explore more deeply."
"To draw out the reality of the consequences of this post I heartily recommend that you practice, beginning to TRUST your SOUL, as well as consider the explicit contribution your soul is waiting to make, to be recognised and involved."
A fundamental component of “getting our life to spark,” is to live from our Soul and what it intended for this Incarnation, without getting caught up in the detritus of Capitalism (or Communism) or the other follies of this Veca.
Addendum 2: Core Essence
In the context of shedding the clutter in our consciousness and sparking our own Life back into order and harmony, and on the heels of Michael’s emphasis about considering the contribution one’s Soul is waiting to make, I came across a very relevant excerpt by Theresa Talea:
"[It] is crucial to fortify our personal energetic field with the expansion of one’s core essence. Too much has weakened and distracted us—ultimately disconnecting us—from our true selves and our integral relationship with life supporting Earth. It is time to really think about shifting forward toward real life, real and lasting connection, and real health in every way, which can happen in one or more steps at a time. … I invite you to be your shining light wherever you are in the world, and your natural light will radiate along with the light of our conscious Earth. Together, no matter how few of us there are, the strength of our integrity will be more far-reaching and stable than whatever intrusive energies try to impact our planet."
– Knowing and Embracing Your Main Quality as a Conscientious Person
Marie Kondo has certainly clarified, owned, and expanded into her personal Core Essence. She is Tidying. Tidying is her.
For me, my essence manifests in writing insights, and guiding people into their own deeper potentials of awareness. Those things are me. I had gotten so far away from myself all these years. Now, my “spirituality” is simply to return to what I always was.
What is You?
Addendum 3: Sincere Desire
There’s a huge challenge to the KonMari Method that I have not seen articulated. It applies to both physical clutter and existential clutter.
That challenge is: you have to actually want to Be Happy. Or Whole. Or At-One. Whatever state of “satisfying Godness” you think you want, you have to actually want it — and thereby be willing to prioritize it while sacrificing other things you’ve been prioritizing hitherto.
You have to want that Spark Of Life more than all your fears, beliefs, expectations, obsessions, disappointments, urges, codependencies, coping mechanisms, etc. More than all the things that don’t spark, but which convince you of paying attention to them so that “something bad doesn’t happen” or to “avoid getting hurt again.”
My prioritizing of those inferior things — little issues down here in Creation which were not congruent with the Godness trying to spark inside of me — is what derailed me from my own Joy & Wholeness for so long.
Instead of writing, I bottled up my thoughts until they exploded. Instead of being Free, I tried to force things to be different.
I had to overcome all of these False Priorities. Eventually, prioritizing those things simply became exhausting, and even induced illness. Then, in the states of hologram decay and forced respite from the things which drained me, where I had no more energy to do anything about it and felt defeated by external reality, I’d notice the exhaustion actually felt better than the efforts!
I realized I wanted the Peace I felt in my exhaustion, more than the Frustration/Fear/Anxiety/Resistance/Righteousness/Pain I felt in my efforts.
At some point the light bulb just clicked that my efforts were futile and coming from the wrong place inside myself. My life was not sparking. I was getting frustrated with sparkless things outside of me, because it reflected I wasn’t sparking inside myself. And the unconscious foolishness was thinking I needed outside things to spark, so that I could then spark inside myself.
Now through healing and reflection, I’ve either integrated or left behind things that drained my energy, and I’ve moved on to the things that spark a bit of life in me.
I’ll continue to study Keylontic Science, sure. But it’s so refreshing to step back and realize it’s already working inside of me. I can step back from studies and efforts and take a break and enjoy Life, simply because I’m alive.
And now, Life feels all the better. The sparks that were always trying to light me up from the inside-out all of these years, are no longer snuffed out.