Sexuality and Spirituality are the same thing, at different levels in different ways.
Part of the value of Keylontic Science / The Freedom Teachings / The Kryst Teachings is that this body of work articulates what’s really going on with Sexuality, and why it’s so sacred and sacrosanct.
(This article contains mature content beginning in Section 2.)
Table of Contents
Section 1: Keylontic Perspectives
The Orientations, Genders, & Sexes
Heterosexual. Homosexual. Bisexual. Asexual.
ManU. EirA. ManA.
Male. Female. (Occasionally Interesex. And in other worlds, Hermaphrodite and Sexless.)
Keylontic Science elaborates how those Orientations, Genders, and Sexes are the main things that exist in terms of Sexuality. (That is, contrary to contemporary Liberal Politics & Agendas, definitive sexual orientation does exist, there are not a hundred genders, and basically there are only two sexes.)
Some combination of those traits — sex + orientation + gender energy — essentially constitute the totality of our Sexuality.
Spirituality + Sexuality
Keylontic Science is unique in acknowledging the spiritual existence and functionality of Homosexuality.
When reflecting on my current incarnation, Homosexuality is one of the greatest aspects of this lifetime.
After several lifetimes experiencing Heterosexuality, Homosexuality has served my healing and accretion in profound ways, both for the sake of my own consciousness, and also in helping me understand the nuanced depths of what Men, Malehood, and Masculinity are enduring on this planet. Male Homosexuality enables a deep “inside look” into Malehood, cornering gay people into really thinking about the nature of being a Man and interacting with Men. It works like a reflection mechanism. Male Homosexuality has helped me appreciate the beauty and suffering of Men, which has helped me heal so much of myself.
So it was always clear to me that Homosexuality is a normal thing which has spiritual purpose. Whereas a some gay people seem to suffer from the judgements and abuses of this world, being gay was never a difficult thing for me. It just was. So I just accepted it without much thought, which enabled it to serve my consciousness, experience, and development without much turbulence or external interference.
The Gay Test
I have often employed a “Gay Barometer Test” on various paradigms.
“Does XYZ understand and make sense of Homosexuality, or at least leave it alone?”
Things which “don’t get” Homosexuality are clueless, and things which oppose it are ultimately opposing Spirituality, just as if they were opposing Heterosexuality. So I’m always on the lookout for where something or someone stands on this topic. I’ve discovered that a lot can be extrapolated about a paradigm or person from how this single topic is viewed.
In the workshop Sacred Sexuality 1 of the The Freedom Teachings, it was a pleasant surprise when Speaker 1 went on an unexpected tangent to articulate the place Homosexuality has in Krystic Spirituality, and how it might be different from Heterosexuality but not any less spiritual or spiritually-conducive.
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Speaker 2 also write his own articulation of this same topic, in the Twins paper:
“Although homosexuality is generally misunderstood in this reality system, there are ways that the polarities can be brought into balance so that it is not an anomaly. People here are treated as if it were an anomaly because there are actually ways the same gender pairs can trigger faster integration of their parallel selves. This makes them a bigger threat in a dogmatic society that is trying to control the sexual energies of people.
“There are certain advantages that come with being a same Gender Twin, and this is why it has been repressed for so long, and why there has been such a campaign against being gay whether you are male or female. There were ancient ‘rites’ that were natural for people who chose this path and that go all the way up the dimensional scale when frequencies are combined as same sex Gender Twins.”
“Take the body parts away and imagine what homosexuality would look like on Density 4. They are no longer physical bodies with body parts. We are talking about beautiful spheres of light coming together in special ways that can run huge amounts frequency and can blend their consciousness to know each other on every level, IN ALL WAYS.”
(In case it needs said: this is not about putting Homosexuality on a pedestal, like Leftism does. Nor is it about demoting Heterosexuality as somehow inferior … like Leftism does. It’s about understanding that the category of “Orientation” simply has more than one Orientation, and that each of them has value and validity in terms of spiritual growth and experience, and also in terms of beauty and intimacy. Each also has differences, which contribute to unique experiences, neither better than the other. Just different.)
The Significance of Spiritual Homosexuality
So, Keylontic Science passed my personal test with flying colors.
This is significant for two reasons.
First Reason
Due to being a Spiritual Foreigner, I’ve felt very out of place amongst the various spiritual circles I’ve explored. I tested a lot of waters, both for my Spirit and my Orientation, finding they were either lukewarm or quite cold. Years ago I felt drawn to Bahá’í for example, only to discover it “doesn’t get” Homosexuality.
Intuitively I always knew that Homosexuality (and all Sexuality) held great spiritual mystery and significance, so in a way I had been holding out to find the spiritual paradigm that matched this inner knowing: a paradigm that was both valid with objective spiritual principles, while also being clued into the nuances of Homosexuality.
KS seems to be that paradigm. KS holds important keys to understanding and respecting Homosexuality in particular and Sexuality in general.
Second Reason
There are so many gay people who need the Keylontic perspective on Homosexuality for their healing and wellbeing.
Annunaki/Jehovian/Fallen Christianity has edged them out from their relationships with God, Christos, and their Body/Sexuality/Orientation — pitting their Sexuality against their Spirituality, which is abhorrent.
Whereas I’d rather be a quiet hermit and not rock the boat or put myself out there, ultimately I realized the topic of Spiritual Homosexuality is something that needs overt articulation and elaboration, foremost so that other gay people can rediscover the spirituality and sanctity of their own Sexuality, and secondly so that others who “don’t get it” can either start to get it if they feel inspired to understand it, or at least get a grip and leave it alone if they don’t want to cultivate comprehension of this branch of Sacred Sexuality.
KS is special in that it acknowledges Homosexuality, and this is something the world has needed — and which gay people have needed most of all to mend their Spirituality from the fractures created by Religious Ideology and Rogue Entities who are primarily preying upon the childbearing capacity of Humans and hating on everyone and everything that doesn’t put out for them.
Sexual Coding
Although KS spells out the Genders and Orientations, there is much more complexity and multidimensionality to the combined make-up of our Sexuality, our Personality, and our Energy.
Using myself is the best example: My Body is male. My Orientation is homosexual. My Personality is Neutral-Masculine. While my Energy/Aura/Field is Feminine/EirA.
My own make-up has led to many curious contemplations in my life. How does all of this come together? Where is it coded into our anatomy/consciousness? Why is it coded that way?
For the Why, I’ve gathered that all aspects of our Incarnation — including our Sexuality — manifest in order to serve our Higher Self, consciousness, growth, accretion, etc. So whether we’re straight or gay or both or neither, it’s because it plays into a bigger, higher, deeper part of our consciousness and what our consciousness wants to experience and grow from. Our Soul literally chose it that way. We do “choose” our orientation — but at the Soul level!
As for the Where and How, I still have no idea. Maybe further exploration of KS will fill in these gaps for me. Regardless, it has always seemed to me like our Orientation is coded into our D1 Body.
If so, D1 Sexual Coding is quite an ironic phenomenon.
Some people think Homosexuality has nothing to do with Biology and is some sort of anomaly; but if Homosexuality is coded into the D1 level, then that means Homosexuality has everything to do with Biology, just like Heterosexuality.
What religious/atheistic/nihilistic perspectives aren’t grasping is that our Higher Self/Consciousness/Spirituality “commands” our lower levels. So if Sexuality is coded into D1, and D1 is about physical Biology, then the Biology of that Sexuality is serving a higher Spiritual alignment — not biological nihilism-materialism. That Higher Self is employing the lower levels in service to valid spiritual experience. Whether gay or straight, Orientation is about serving consciousness.
Dimension 1
D1 seems to be about the alignments of Sexuality: namely one’s Orientation and which sex one’s own Biology is ‘activated by’. D1-level arousal is a purely non-conscious, biological phenomenon.
There was even an observation how transgender patients who develop dementia became confused at “being/appearing the opposite sex” and wondering why they weren’t their original sex/orientation. In other words, Sex and Sexuality are coded into D1, and higher D2+ emotions or mindsets or mental illness don’t alter that.
Dimension 2
Meanwhile D2 also plays an important role in the energetics of Sexuality.
Human Sexuality is a highly Elemental affair. When I got to the Elemental section of Sacred Sexuality 1, it was a huge activation/accretion. I had to stop watching the workshop for ages because my Mind was still working to grasp the implications of what our Elementals are up to, and how they may need managed and healed.
In brief, the state of our Elementals affects our Emotions, Impulses, and Sexual Energetics. Although healing Elementals won’t change our Orientation, unhealed Elementals can certainly affect the people we’re attracted to in artificial ways, which is something worth becoming aware of and considering the implications of.
This complex interaction and interfacing of all of our levels and “how that adds up to Sexuality” fascinates me. In spite being super gay, I’ve wondered why I’m not attracted to most men. What determines that? What determines one’s “type”?
This has also made me curious how others “out in the world” seem to be so casual with their attraction, and into so many other types of people. Does everyone have a “type” or not? Or is their coding not so astringent? I don’t know.
Or maybe, are their Elementals not so particular? While the Orientation is an objective thing, the way it manifests and aligns seems highly subjective, and I wonder if much of this this has to do with Elementals — as well as what our Soul is meant to align to in another person, or even plans to align to upon setting up the lifetime from Density 2. When our Elementals have issues, they can crave other Elementals, which might not match up to the person we’re meant to be with at a higher level (and can thus get people into trouble with karmic sexual relationships and the like).
So there can be a discrepancy that needs to come into balance, adding further complexity to the make-up of Sexuality.
Dimension 3+
On top of D1 Orientation and D2 Elemental-Attraction, there’s our D3+ level which also factors into Sexual Alignment.
Many years ago, before being assaulted by a hundred genders that are trying to erase the existence of Homosexuality/Heterosexuality/Orientation, I came across the term “demisexual,” which was sort of an epiphany. I never interpreted it as some hundredth gender, but rather a ‘mode’ that modified Sexuality.
If I remember it’s about needing an emotional or intellectual bond before there is sexual activation, but the way I interpreted it was about needing a higher spiritual bond — a higher, spiritual, Soul-level alignment.
Deep down, that’s what I knew I’d get with my Beloved and no one else. When there isn’t alignment and compatibility at the Emotional, Mental, and Soul-Spiritual levels, there’s just not legitimate sexual activation. There must be a sense of spiritual destiny for being together. If my Soul isn’t meant to be with the other Human, then my Human never felt interested in them. Crushes especially were funny things for me, because they had nothing to do with Sexuality and everything to do with Spirituality. It’s like they were about the higher centers and fizzled out into deeper self-awareness before they could activate D1/D2, or often times, there just wasn’t any D1/D2 activation (or even attraction) in the first place.
For this reason, “dating” has always been a bizarre thing to me. Why do people go on dates? Don’t they know if they’re meant to be with someone or not? Why would I “go on dates” with random people I bump into in Density 1? Even when my D1 level feels activated by another person, there’s rarely D2-D3 compatibility, and almost never D4+ destiny. So it all seemed fruitless to me. Or some mis-match of Elementals and other factors to bring into balance.
For many people who are spiritually disconnected and suffering from the blocks that split up their chakras and hyper-polarize their Gender energy, they seem to crave and chase D1-level sexuality, regardless if it has even D2 Emotional or D3 Mental compatibility and alignment. As for D4+ alignment, that’s usually not even on the radar. Some people are just bouncing around in Density 1 and end up marrying whoever they knock up.
So these various nuanced circumstances have shown me that even though the Orientations and Genders are quite simple and straightforward, there is a complexity to what constitutes Sexuality, spanning multiple levels of consciousness. It’s truly a multidimensional phenomenon that transcends mere Biology.
Cross Perspectives
Along with Sexual Coding, something I was curious about is how people of one Orientation view the other Orientation.
After observing societal attitudes, having some discussions with friends, and just reflecting on myself, I’m coming to the conclusion that most people are disgusted by everyone else’s Orientation, which is amusing and to be expected.
People who are gay or straight, are typically 100% gay or 100% straight, and there’s something in the D1 coding that makes the incompatible sex/orientation extremely unappealing.
Once upon a time I was sharing a hotel room with a female friend and she came onto me. I observed my body get extremely anxious and uneasy; it was a visceral, physical reaction that occurred before my Mind and Emotions fully processed it. So it’s quite understandable if the experience is similar for many straight people when they consider being with the same sex.
“If one operates exclusively from one’s own experience and perspective, then a heterosexual might well say, “homosexuality is unnatural.” But what heterosexuals ought to say is that “homosexuality is unnatural for me. I don’t need it. I get aroused and excited and fall in love with people of the opposite sex.”” – The Hidden Spirituality of Men by Matthew Fox
Being 100% gay or straight does not make us “phobic” of the other, it just shows how Sexuality is something very private and personal, and to be engaged with care and alignment. At the D1 level of Orientation, things can be very black and white, with gray only for those who are bisexual.
But above D1, due to the combination of various levels and factors, there’s so much more to what constitutes “alignment” for a person. In spite the objective D1 Orientation mechanics, there’s a “profile” (or type?) that is unique for each person, and anything outside of that won’t be aligned/attractive for them. This profile likely relates to whom they’re truly meant to be with at a higher spiritual level, where each person’s “profile” matches the other perfectly (even if it’s not what they would’ve put on a list at first) and does not match most other people.
True Sexuality, compatibility, and destiny will always be mutual. If something’s not aligning, it’s not “meant to be.” Instead, it’s meant to be contemplated and integrated so that a person can actually get into alignment and match up to whom they’re meant to be with. (At least this is the way things were meant to be… There’s been sabotage.)
As long as a person’s levels aren’t too wounded or out of whack, the layers all add up into something that serves a person’s higher consciousness. And in intimate relationships, the sharing and co-creation of Sexuality will be something that serves both people’s growth and experience together.
Section 2: Socio-Spiritual Perspectives
Political Exploitation
(This section is written from an American-Western context.)
Once upon a time, there was the Gay Rights Movement.
This movement was an organic, naturally-arising, and Krystic civil rights movement.
Although gay people served as the agents of change, this movement was actually about everyone. This movement was founded on the evolution of allowing everyone to be their True Selves, no matter how they “don’t fit the polarity standard” of mainstream society.
It was about emphasizing that Men are still Men: even if they’re gay, or even if they’re straight but Feminine-EirA.
It was about emphasizing that Women are still Women: even if they’re lesbian, or even if they’re straight but Masculine-ManA.
The Gay Rights Movement was in service to lessening and healing the extreme, insane, alien-engineered Male-vs-Female duality polarization that haunts the Collective Consciousness.
“Men should do ABC” and “Women should be XYZ.”
Bullshit. People should be what their Soul wants them to be. Not some artificial societal roleplaying costume.
While it’s true that Male-Masculine-ManA and Female-Feminine-EirA come with certain intrinsic energies and traits which are unique to the one and not found in the other, and while it’s true that Men are generally Masculine-ManA and Women are generally Feminine-EirA: the Higher Truth is that a Soul can incarnate into any Sex with any Gender dynamic and any Orientation.
And that is the Truth which must be honored.
Although it was Gay People who carried the torch, the undercurrents of this civil rights movement was about EVERYONE, not just Gay People.
“The gay liberation movement is everyone’s movement, just as Martin Luther King Jr. taught when he said that justice denied anyone is justice denied us all.” – The Hidden Spirituality of Men by Matthew Fox
Mission Accomplished … If Only
So once upon a time there was a Gay Rights Movement … but that time has long since ended.
Technically, it ended in 2015, when the US Supreme Court struck down the only-heterosexual thus anti-spiritual definition of marriage:
"The 1996 Defense of Marriage Act, or DOMA, was signed into law by President Bill Clinton, barring federal recognition of same-sex marriages for purposes such as Social Security survivors' benefits, insurance benefits, immigration and tax filing. …the court struck down the federal law because it denies same-sex couples the "equal liberty" guaranteed by the Fifth Amendment. This decision means that legally married same-sex couples are now entitled to the same federal benefits as married opposite sex couples." – NPR
That was the crowning moment of the Gay Rights Movement.
Now everyone could go home, straight people could be whoever they truly are, and gay people could get married and receive all of the glorious Corporate Federal Government Benefits that straight couples had been enjoying. (The irony of people fighting for marriage licenses inside the US Corporation is its own tangent, but at least in mainstream society, gay Unions got the same acknowledgements and outcomes as straight Unions.)
That’s where the Gay Rights Movement was supposed to end.
But some people just couldn’t pack up their bags and leave the money train behind.
And certain forces just couldn’t pass up a tantalizing opportunity.
The Baphomet Agenda
The crowning moment of the expansion of the Collective Consciousness’s balancing and healing of Polarity, was swiftly hijacked and twisted.
But what’s new?
This is what’s been happening throughout Human History. People will come together over a genuine issue and pursue genuine change (evolution, advancement, development, accretion, ascension), but while that’s going on, agents will be inserted to disrupt the progress of this movement, and if they can get their way, they’ll take it over and redirect the movement into something else — something inverted from the evolution it was striving to achieve, so that the energy harnessed can serve some ulterior agenda.
This is what the CIA has done throughout the world, for example. Toppling inconvenient governments during times of unrest to achieve regime changes that supposedly suit them. And that’s how Iran is a country of misogny, where once again Women must cover themselves up to “prevent” Men from losing control over their Elementals.
The enemy is not abroad but at home. I wouldn’t be surprised if the CIA has its hand in the exploitation of the Gay Rights Movement.
What’s obvious is that Liberalism/Progressivism/Leftism is the one which has laid claim to the Gay Rights Movement and twisted it into something unwholesome.
And what’s increasingly obvious is that the force behind that Political Agenda is Satanic Evil itself.
The “Alphabet LGBTQIA+++ Community” … is “The Queer Agenda” … is “The Transgender Agenda” … is The Baphomet Agenda.
It must be acknowledged that a Soul can design and incarnate into whatever type of lifetime it wants, and that there may indeed be certain Incarnations meant to have a Transgender experience for their spiritual growth.
However, it’s pretty clear that these Incarnations do not account for the massive forces behind “The LGBTQ.”
This Alphabet Agenda no longer represents Homosexuality or Gay People. In fact, it is the most psychotically homophobic agenda I have personally ever witnessed in my life.
Sure, there’s Christian Evangelical Conservatism that has stuck around and hates gay people because those people have nothing better to do while worshiping their False God and False Savior, pinning their desperate hopes on “conversion therapy.” (lol)
But the Evil that is running wild today is far worse than the Luciferian Ideology of old-country Christian Conservatism.
Today’s evil is Satanic.
And while it appears to love Homosexuality, it actually hates Homosexuality — as I have witnessed and endured, via the homophobia of people who’ve been brainwashed to think that “Sexual Orientation” is just a “genital preference” or worse, a “fetish.” In this way, this Agenda is quite heterophobic as well.
Hatred no longer discriminates. “Progress!”
The Satanic Baphomet Agenda finds all Orientation quite inconvenient, because having Orientation automatically insinuates having defined Sexes of Male or Female, and it just can’t have that. “Sex” has to be “Gender” now, because Gender can be “changed” even when the chromosomes stay the same. (And those “changes” require lifetime medical upkeep, so Big Pharma does not mind The Baphomet Agenda in the slightest.)
The Gay Rights Movement began with the emphasis that people are born the way they are and their Sex+Orientation+Gender combination cannot be changed (because it has a spiritual purpose designed by the Soul, no matter what hateful Humans protest about) … and now the fake successor to the Gay Rights Movement asserts that “Gender” is a hundred different things and you better respect the pronouns; that Sex doesn’t exist and/or can be recreated in surgery; and that Orientation is some form of binary-socialized-conditioning which must be unwound so as to become compatible with these newly minted sex reassignments (AKA a form of conversion therapy that’s a trillion times worse than the religious mental brainwashing typical of Luciferian Evil).
And the real kicker?
Most of this Satanic Agenda is ran by Straight People suffering from not just Mental Illness, but clearly Spiritual Illness. Most of the “trans women” making themselves feel at home in female locker rooms and female sports … are Straight Men.
That’s one version of what it means to be “Queer.” Very strange indeed.
Back in the day, there was much fearmongering about “The Gay Agenda” — an “agenda” that was born from deluded Straight People who couldn’t perceive the Spirituality inside Homosexuality.
And nowadays, we’ve got The Trans Agenda — an agenda largely derived from deluded Straight People who frankly just hate Orientation, because it doesn’t let them have sex with the people they want; or who hate Sex itself, because it doesn’t let them be validated like they crave; or of Men who just get turned on by imagining being a Woman, known as autogynephilia. (Notice how the inverse almost doesn’t even seem to exist, that of Women getting turned on by imagining being Men. There’s a uniquely Male Mental Illness afoot, perhaps deriving from Boys/Men not being deemed worthy of Love and Softness because they’re supposed to be “tough.” But Woman can have lovely soft things, so why not become one?)
Now, instead of healing himself, a wounded Man can just become a Woman and get praised!
There may be a small amount of genuine Transgender Incarnations, but it’s worth pointing out that this Baphomet Agenda is a mockery of them as well. If there is any legitimate Transgender Experience in the Human Condition, this agenda has expertly hijacked that experience and commercialized it and politicized it to the point of no return for mainstream society. So much for acceptance.
Overall, the Baphomet Agenda has completely hijacked and eviscerated the Gay Rights Movement, now using “gay people” and “trans people” as costumes to have sex with children — or at least, to groom them into thinking they’re not the Sex/Gender/Orientation they were born as and can alter it with some pronoun therapy and life-long surgery.
There are still many ignorant people who think this is a “Gay Agenda,” which is infuriating. Because many of the kids being groomed — and mutilated — are gay kids. The Baphomet Agenda is one of the most homophobic, vile, anti-Life, anti-Kryst phenomena currently on the planet.
Instead of unifying ManA, EirA, and ManU in holy matrimony, it artificially flips the Sexes and Genders and considers that “actualization.” Anyone with an ounce of intelligence can see how the Baphomet Agenda has taken something organic and twisted it into something inverted:
Instead of Sex being the basis of Sexuality … it’s now “social conditioning” which can be altered because it’s merely “assigned” at birth.
Instead of Orientation defining which Sex one’s D1 Body is activated by and compatible with … Orientation is now a genital fetish which a person requires some education about so as to unravel their “bigotry.”
Instead kids being born Homosexual … now their pronouns are defined by predatory “parents,” and if they’re a Boy who’s drawn to Boys but plays with Girls’ toys, maybe he’s actually a Girl and requires castration. Or vice versa. No such thing as a tomboy anymore!
Baphomet has hijacked Feminine Boys and Masculine Girls and convinced psychotic people that they’re actually trans girls and trans boys.
Because Baphomet loves a sex change, and loves twisting organic energetics into its own form, for its own lust and self-gratification.
Krystic Spirituality can organically manifest as Male + EirA or Female + ManA.
But Satanic Baphometism is about “achieving different combinations” artificially and invertedly. The misfortune of this is that the people who actually think they want this, always seem to be deeply wounded or traumatized or brainwashed. Some of them are spiritually depraved, certainly.
But many of those people are Innocent. Evil is “evil” precisely because it violates the Innocence of people, and many people’s innocent trauma and confusion is being violated by these forces.
Whereas the energetics and attitudes of the Gay Rights Movement actually would’ve healed them and granted them clarity about themselves, the Baphomet Agenda preys upon them and brainwashes them to the point of self-destruction and corporeal mutilation — a Satanic Act which Baphomet hopes will keep the person allegiant to its cause. (Except that’s not working out so well.)
The Gay Rights Movement served to help the world heal from the polarity-duality divide in the collective. Not only does it barely exist now, it has been successfully hijacked and inverted by the most grotesque of Evils which vehemently seeks to remake Men and Women into its own false-hermaphrodite image via the predation and exploitation of Children.
But finally, mainstream people — especially gay people — are starting to wake up to this.
The dark irony is that Baphometism is essentially a Religion, but since it’s so spirit-less and anti-Krystic, it has found a home in oh-so-scientific Liberalism.
Religion’s Obsession
Sexuality and Spirituality are the same things in different ways, and one of the mainstays of Religion is to control Sexuality in order to control Spirituality.
Religion prescribes how sexual relationships “must be,” even if that prescription deviates from or outright denies a person’s authentic sexual alignments. (Authentic sexual alignments represent True Spirituality, which Religion cannot control. So it controls what it can control: Density 1 reality, and the people living down here, and how they view/judge things down here.)
This “sexual prescription” conforms to an agenda.
Not surprisingly, this agenda typically plays into the hands of Rogue Entities — because Religion does not derive from God. Religion derives from Entities who deviated from their Divinity and then fabricated a False Ideology. The religious tactics that continue to be perpetuated ultimately derive from these Fallen Entities. (Many people who perpetuate religious tactics are not themselves Fallen, but rather are still traumatized from religious trauma in their past, and thereby operating from wounded behavior, brainwashing, or digressed evolution. Many people in this world are wounded and unaware of it.)
Entities cannot control True Spirituality (IE God and God’s expression through us) but they can mandate “how sexuality should be” and coerce people to conform to this mandate. This is what they have done for eons, convincing people to behave certain ways or avoid certain things, even if that behavior or avoidance is antithetical to their legitimate spiritual authenticity.
“Although homosexuality is generally misunderstood in this reality system, there are ways that the polarities can be brought into balance so that it is not an anomaly. People here are treated as if it were an anomaly because there are actually ways the same gender pairs can trigger faster integration of their parallel selves. This makes them a bigger threat in a dogmatic society that is trying to control the sexual energies of people.” – Twins by Speaker 2
Sex Is For God, Not Genes
Although Sexuality and Spirituality are deeply intertwined, various forces throughout history have worked to split these two things, ditching the “inconvenient Spirituality” part to exploit Sexuality for their own ends.
This is the nature of the Annunaki-style Breeding Agendas, where Heterosexuality is put on a pedestal to be exploited into producing offspring to maintain a slave race that serves its “masters.” The Breeding Agendas are the main sexual agenda perpetuated by Religion, and it’s worth noting that this form of Evil targets straight people.
No one has been spared in this world.
Something unique with Homosexuality in the context of this wayward society is that when a person is gay, the circumstances they’re surrounded by ‘corner’ them into becoming super reflective and contemplative about the nature of their Sexuality. For gay people, Sexuality is not just some unconscious default down here in D1 to employ without a thought. Gay people become quite conscious about it, and how to handle it, and how it fits into their life and the world.
This consciousness contemplation about Sexuality is something that isn’t often initiated for straight people, even though it would help them just as much as gay people.
Because Heterosexuality is the most exploited Orientation on Earth.
There’s so much cognitive dissonant nonsense about “how bad Homosexuality is” or “how messed up gay people are,” with so little reflection about how messed up straight people can be due to the religious and alien influences that have exploited their Heterosexuality for eons.
Forcefully polarizing people into hyper Masculine vs Feminine splits and roles and boxes; telling people they’re bad for having sexual urges and are going to hell if they don’t save it until marriage; coercing straight people to have children to conform to certain ideologies; on and on and on — all of this constitutes spiritual-sexual trauma, and it’s majorly aimed at straight people.
Homosexuality has been highly targeted on this planet, but so has Heterosexuality. Due to circumstances and intrinsic non-conformity, gay people get a head start on contemplating all of this and working through it; but — due to those same circumstances which are corralling and covertly coercing Heterosexuality — straight people sometimes never wake up to how their Sexuality is being manipulated away from God and personal authenticity, and into the service of Fallen races and ideologies.
The point is: Sexuality is for God and for one’s own consciousness, period.
Not for religion. Not for aliens. Not for ideology.
“Employing” Sexuality to serve something inferior from God and one’s own consciousness — such as a belief, ideology, religion, or even wounding (as with “kinks” and things like BDSM) — is the misuse of Sexuality and not in alignment either with God or with a person’s own wholeness.
Sexuality is meant to serve our Soul / Higher Self and contribute to experiences and accretion which help develop our consciousness.
Gay or straight or in between, Sexuality was never supposed to be shunned by religion on the gay side or exploited by aliens on the straight side. Rejection and promotion, suppression and exploitation. This is not Nature.
Along the lines of the Breeding Agendas which hate Homosexuality and exploit Heterosexuality, an obsession with genes and genetics is usually at the core of this agenda. The Nazis exemplified this.
This genetic obsession derives from the fact that the Fallen Entities which are exploiting Sexual Procreation, do so because they are no longer Eternal and have no other way to live and perpetuate themselves except via recurring incarnation. The only way for their Soul Collectives to “remain immortal” or have influence in this realm, is to perpetually procreate new meatsuits to incarnate into (and eventually use technology to prevent these meatsuits from dying, which is still not Eternal). They have to maintain this Density 1 perpetuation, because if they lose presence/control in Density 1 and get ejected out into the higher densities, that’s where the entropy of their spiritual issues really play out and where they’ll deteriorate into spacedust/finity. They’re living a “horizontal life” obsessing over genes and incarnation because they’ve given up on “vertical life” of uniting with God and God’s Design.
So these Fallen Entities enforce and exploit Heterosexuality so that they can spite their non-Eternal circumstances and “stay alive.” This is one aspect of what the Eiyani Massacre was about. Another aspect of this ideological procreation is to maintain a slave race for manual labor.
In tandem with being codependent with Heterosexuality to perpetuate immortality, these same Entities and ideologies hate Homosexuality because it’s quite inconvenient to have a God-functional Sexual Orientation that doesn’t produce Density 1 offspring for either immortality nor slave labor. So very inconvenient! It’s just so so bad! How dare gay people bypass alien agendas! Gay people are going to the Fake Hell of the Fake Religion which was fabricated by Fake Gods, because they just won’t make babies for their slavemasters to incarnate into!
The religious hatred and rejection for Homosexuality derives from that rogue alien ideology. It has done great harm in pushing gay people away from God and into the arms of things like Leftism and hedonism.
You wanna know why some gay people are indeed so messed up? It’s because they received a concentrated dose of alien hatred.
So Keylontic Science is very important in helping gay people heal from this alien abuse and bring their Sexuality back in line with Spirituality and with God.
And likewise, Keylontic Science is very important in helping straight people heal from that same alien abuse, so that they can overcome their “unconscious default mode” and the ideologies brainwashing them to exploit their Sexuality or otherwise repress their natural energetics, all because they don’t tick certain ideological boxes. Many straight people could do with rediscovering the spiritual magic innate in their Sexuality and in seeing the beauty in the potential for Procreation, rather than dismissing it as some mundane means to “keep the Human race alive” (so that aliens can harvest Humanity — that’s the part they don’t tell us about, except in the movie Jupiter Ascending).
Sex is not for the genetic preferences of Fallen Races, but for the experiential ecstasy of God that erupts when consciousness activates certain parts of itself.
Whether gay or straight, genetic proliferation is secondary to Consciousness Experience & Accretion.
NICHOLSON: Carol Gilligan’s research of young boys is giving us this extraordinary insight that boys get shamed for their vulnerability at a very young age, right around kindergarten, and that’s the time at which they really learn to hold off from expressing their feelings and experience. …
FOX: I wonder if this can help explain why homosexual men are often more mature than heterosexual men, because they had to deal with that shame and even a geometrically increased proportion of it at an early age. …
NICHOLSON: I agree. But it’s important not to shame heterosexual men for not being where homosexual men are. Heterosexual and homosexual men have been through necessarily different initiations. Homosexual men have had to come out in a culture that scapegoats their sexuality. They’ve had to deal with that culture in a very upfront way, and they generally find places where they find allies and talk about and work that shame. Like women do. I don’t think heterosexual men have the same opportunities where they can process their shame. They go through a different initiation, which is to find a way to develop the capacity to live in the world without having vulnerability. …
FOX: In other words, hetero men are just as capable of it as homosexual men but have had less experience.
– The Hidden Spirituality of Men by Matthew Fox
Cocreation not Procreation
Following on the dichotomy of God vs Genes, another inversion of Alien Agendas is the obsession with Procreation at the expense of what’s really going on: Cocreation.
ALL Sexuality is about Cocreation, not Procreation!
Because all sex is about co-creating something energetically and spiritually — including straight sex when it doesn’t result in Procreation.
In fact, the best proof that sex is not actually about Procreation, is the reality that most straight sex does not lead to Procreation. Either straight people are infertile and can’t procreate, or they just want to make love and not procreate, or they want to procreate but it’s not the right spiritual timing for it to occur, so they don’t get pregnant.
So much sex, so little Procreation.
(So inconvenient for the aliens, who tethered the Female cycle to the Moon to speed it up and artificially accelerate the frequency potential for birthing new slaves.)
So little Procreation… So clearly that’s not what Sexuality is really about.
(The next best proof that Sex isn’t about Procreation is the fact that Sexuality can be experienced solo… Contrary to the dictates of religion, or even the mainstream extremism with No Fap, solo sex is not negative or unnatural. A Being is an individuated emanation of God, and sexual currents and experience can still be activated in the person without a partner. Which further validates that Sexuality is for God & Self first and foremost, not necessarily another person, and definitely not for ulterior agendas and ideologies.)
So, whereas the societal/religious/conservative obsession with Procreation derives from the rogue Alien Agendas, Cocreation is what’s really going on with Sexuality, whether solo or with a partner, whether gay or straight.
This is even more evident when Beings intimately blend their fields without being incarnated, in Density 2 and above. There is no Biological Procreation above Density 1 — and yet Sexuality goes up the full-spectrum of consciousness!
For example, Souls don’t need to have sex to have children — they just emanate a part of themselves into a lower Density 1 and give rise to an incarnation. (Let that sink in. Souls don’t have sex to have offspring. Procreation is an isolated Density 1 phenomenon.)
Meanwhile, Religion & Entities are obsessed with harvesting Sexuality in corrupt and controlled ways…
While I thought this whole article would be purely about the Spirituality of Homosexuality when I began writing it, the harms against Homosexuality really can’t be discussed without also acknowledging the harms against Heterosexuality. All Sexuality — and perhaps everyone’s personal Sexuality — has been targeted in one way or another. There are more straight people than gay people, and thus more people who are straight and who have been harmed by these alien influences and abuses.
Gay people get an intense dose of rejection and judgement (yet tend to stick to being their gay selves in spite the negative influences), but straight people have endured profound exploitation and brainwashing (which has often gone unnoticed and unchecked, because it co-opts their own nature and convinces it to serve an ulterior agenda that “looks like what Heterosexuality is supposed to be”).
Viewing Procreation from a nihilistic, atheistic, genetic, or biology-only perspective is so lifeless. No child wants to be born into this world “to perpetuate the Human Race.”
Beings want to be born into incarnations forged from Love and Alignment. When a Soul wants to emanate an incarnation into Density 1, the ideal situation would be for that incarnation to be born into this world from a place of Love.
This is where the subtle split between Krystic and Luciferian starts to become blaring. Luciferian Ideology is all about maintaining certain objectives and quotas to “be right” or “keep the species alive.”
But Krystic Spirituality is about doing things in the right way, in the right timing, for the right reasons — all to align with Self, Christos, God, and the ebb and flow of Creation. And there are many genuine right reasons to pursue Procreation and help Souls have Incarnations.
Alien Agendas just is not one of those reasons.
Gay or straight, intending children or not, all Sexuality contributes to the Energizing and Cocreation of something.
This is touched on in mainstream “sex abstinence” paradigms when they talk about how we can funnel our sexual energy into creative pursuits. Maybe I’m missing something, as I’ve never found this to be a very direct one-to-one translation of D1 Body activation or D2 Elemental urges into D3+ Creativity; but still, there is some truth to it. Sexuality and Spirituality are intimately intertwined, and we can employ our Sexuality-Spirituality toward Cocreations of beauty, harmony, love, and the like, either alone or with someone, in service to pursuits ranging from children to creativity.
Cocreation is the function of Sexuality, and Keylontic Science helps us be mindful of what will result from the engagement of Sexuality. It’s Sex Ed on steroids.
Innocence
Innocence is the fundamental Nature of God. As far as I have discerned, there’s nothing “more God” than Innocence.
Innocence is, of course, the archetype of Children — and why the violation of Children is so horrific. Symbolically, it’s the violation of God.
I have noticed, both in my own life and in the gay stories I’ve come across, that the experience of Homosexuality is largely about Innocence.
Heterosexuality is too, certainly — when it’s free from all the alien interference and ideologies. But Homosexuality has a different ‘angle’ on Innocence, precisely due to the context of this society in which it exists.
Incarnating with Homosexuality is often about a Devotion To Innocence or a Return To Innocence. It’s about Innocence as a conscious awareness, not just a background state of existence.
Unifying the lowest levels of our consciousness at the D1 level with the highest levels of our consciousness at the D12 level and beyond — especially when that unification defies society and ideology alike — is a profound thing to do. This is “the spiritual gay experience” which most gay people are initiated with in life. We have to “dare” to accept both our D1 and our D12 — our Body and our Spirituality. It’s an act of consciously bridging Flesh and Soul and World and God, and not settling for either without the other.
Growing up and becoming self-aware that we have a D1 Body which is activated by the same Sex, and that this ultimately serves as a conduit for Divine Love & Union, requires a conscious acceptance of our Innocence — because much of the (unconscious) programming and interference in society would prefer that we consciously reject this conduit for Love, Intimacy, and connection with God.
So archetypally, Homosexuality has been about prioritizing personal Innocence as an act of defiance against religious alien agendas and ideologies. More personally, it’s about the raw Innocence of accepting oneself — or one’s Body, or one’s Orientation — as it is.
And Personal Innocence is ultimately the same as God’s Innocence. All Innocence is equivalent.
So many people have so many issues with Homosexuality, that it has made me really wonder “what sort” of Being it takes to incarnate into the experience of Homosexuality. It’s made me wonder “what traits” have to be in place for a Being to handle it.
Some people really go insane at the thought of Homosexuality, and for me that betrays their Soul is incapable of handling it and probably never will choose to incarnate into it. (But they might wanna be careful, because if their Soul intended for their Human to learn from homophobia and overcome it, then their Soul might have a gay lifetime in queue for them to really learn from their homophobia. May every homophobe get their own gay lifetime!)
I don’t think I’m special … yet I ask myself what has made it so easy for me to incarnate into Homosexuality, and so easy for me to perceive the energy, beauty, and divinity inside of this phenomenon. What makes me different from so many others?
I don’t know. But maybe it comes down to a commitment to Personal Innocence. Innocence is my fundamental north star. Being willing to abide in God’s Nature Within, no matter the nature of my Body in this reality, is all about Innocence. For me, Homosexuality is maybe 30% about physicality and 70% about spirituality, or maybe half and half. But it’s profoundly about spirituality, not merely physicality. What I love about it is how it has helped me become conscious of the energetics, and how that awareness has helped me grow as a Man and a Soul.
Gay people simply dare to accept that God and Christos can be found between the intimacy of two Men. There’s an inevitable realization (even if unconscious) that God does not disappear between the intimacy of Men, but rather can be known and nurtured and enjoyed — in utter spite of the False Gods and their ideologies and the admonishments of their adherents.
Sexual Innocence
Human Sexuality is also anchored in Innocence. The D1 level is the most innocent level of all, because it just exists, completely un-self-aware. It’s like a rock or a plant, just-existing. There’s nothing more innocent than mere existence. That’s why genitals are the most private area and why physical intimacy requires mutual respect and care, and why violation of that is the worst sort of violation.
And if D1 is where Orientation is coded, that means Intercourse is also a phenomenon of profound Innocence — or so it should be. True Spiritual Sexuality goes up all the levels; but when incarnated as a Human, it begins at the Base. And Sexuality should be based in Innocence. (Basing it anything else is technically what constitutes “deviancy” or “perversion.”)
This D1 reality of Innocence affirms how gay sex is also innocent — even if it involves penetration.
Oh?
Oh no?
What’s that?
Am I supposed to be ashamed or something? Beat around the bush? Pretend it doesn’t exist? Pretend it’s bad?
Submit to Yahweh’s Old Testament? Be frightened by the wrath of the False Gods? Cower to the judgementalism of self-righteous “spiritual people” who’ve never had a gay lifetime and don’t really know what they’re talking about?
Nah, screw all of that. I’m not ashamed of gay sex from any angle. It’s one of the most beautiful experiences in my life, and neither aliens nor agents can make same-sex intimacy ugly for people who are coded for it, nor can they take it away from gay people no matter how hard they try with might or righteousness.
They’ve been trying for eons, and they’ve failed. Thank God.
The False Gods literally push Heterosexuality to an obsessive degree and try to breed straight babies who can grow up to breed more straight babies … and still, some of this straight sex just keeps on producing gay people. It’s a funny middle finger. Religious people in particular never seemed to realize that if they really wanted to stop the existence of Homosexuality in the world, they could all just stop having sex. (I tip my hat to Heterosexuality for allowing me to have a gay lifetime.)
Another funny thing is, without sexual activation, I personally find the whole Human Condition fairly dirty and disgusting, and this goes for all sex, either gay or straight. Density 1 is ‘icky.’
But most people also have Sex Drives, and by whatever spiritual magic, the Sex Drive ‘modulates’ our view of D1 flesh, plugging it into the rest of our full-spectrum consciousness, thereby linking D1 with our higher consciousness. Somehow, this dirty D1 level becomes desirable or enjoyable for most people, even when it may otherwise be unappealing without the activation.
And the Sex Drive is typically tied to a very specific Orientation. Being gay, I’m repulsed by straight sex, and understand that straight people would be repulsed by gay sex. Straight people are generally repulsed by anal sex — and guess what, gay men are generally repulsed by vaginal sex. It’s about how we’re coded.
And there’s no reason to beat around the bush: gay sex often involves anal sex.
Not for all gay men; those are known as ‘sides’. But others are known as ‘tops’ (ManA energy) or ‘bottoms’ (EirA energy) or ‘versatile’ (IE when Speaker 1 described how gay people can have an easier time swapping between ManA and EirA compared to straight people). The reality is what it is.
I do wonder if Homosexuality might manifest differently in the Angelic Human template versus this GMO Homo sapiens meatsuit that we have, but I’m not sure. (Even Heterosexuality might manifest differently, such as with the Female Cycle not being tethered to the Moon and childbearing once being something far less probable and more based on spiritual alignments.)
With hygiene in mind all around, the penis and vagina already function in a dual purpose manner, performing both corporeal functions and sexual functions. From an objective perspective, it’s not impossible to understand how the anus can do the same. Maybe certain people just don’t want to consider that, and it’s fine. Heterosexuality really is not coded for this, and not all straight minds can handle the concept of it, I’ve learned.
And it’s not exactly the case that Male Homosexuality is coded for it either. Because it’s not truly about the ‘objects’ of sex (IE genitals or flesh), as elaborated later regarding Universal Mechanics.
It’s about Spirituality utilizing the Body for Sexuality.
It’s about our Spirit spiritualizing the Body for the sake of Consciousness.
It’s about higher energetics employing lower materiality to participate in Divine Mechanics, for which gay men simply ‘make do’.
The Body adapts to the “spiritual conditions” and becomes in service to Love — not the center of attention, which is lust. (But even then, there can be a genuine appreciation and adoration of the D1 Body, even if there’s not a meta spiritual awareness about it. “Spiritual people” forget that an aspect of Life is just living it, not always hyper-contemplating-analyzing-justifying it. Some everyday people who are enthralled by Life are a good deal more spiritual than “the spiritual people” who talk about Life while barely living it.)
Since Homosexuality is ironically coded into D1 Biology, some gay men do live lives of lust without the higher mechanics coming online. But the point is that higher mechanics are available to gay men, and that’s what’s truly playing out with any penetrative-receptive dynamic: Natural Polarity Mechanics.
Mode of Being
Anal sex seems to involve the Um-Shaddh-Eie, the Seed Atom which leads to the Jhardon of Edon (Garden of Eden). I heard it once described as a part of our spiritual anatomy which “has no protection.” This is significant.
For one, it explains why anal rape is so abhorrent on every level, and inflicted so often by Satanic Evil as a tactic of control and abuse (contrary to Luciferian Evil, which much prefers vaginal rape). For those who’ve gone down the [white] rabbit hole, they have seen the vile horrors inflicted upon Children in particular.
Anal rape is the same frequency as “sodomy.”
“Sodomy” is the frequency of anal rape.
When people use the word “sodomy,” the frequencies/events they’re invoking are along the lines of anal rape, abuse, violation, power games, etc.
Speaker 2 once pointed out that sodomy has become a ‘thing’ between some straight people, as some sort of power game or “trial of initiation” for women. It was revealed to him and Speaker 1 how the Annunaki used anal-sexual abuse in order to cord victims.
Meanwhile, it should be pretty clear that “sodomy” has nothing to do with intimacy — especially intimacy which might involve anal sex.
“Sodomy” and intimacy are two are diametrically opposed phenomena.
Intimacy intrinsically does not involve rape, violation, abuse, power games, etc. Furthermore, loving gay men — or even casual and generally non-abusive gay men — do not experience “cording” between each other. Bonafide intimacy does not lead to toxic spiritual conditions like cording, tethering, aura holes, power dynamics, etc.
It’s bizarre to me people don’t grasp the distinction. They’re different things, because they derive from difference places of consciousness — different integrities of consciousness.
Different modes of being.
An important nuance of actually understanding Spirituality is that “ultimate truth” is basically never in the “object.” Truth is in the mechanics, the means, the motive.
Vaginal sex is not intrinsically valid just because it’s vaginal. If the object of the vagina is what validated the sex, then a man raping a woman would be spiritually valid, right? But that is not the truth.
Yet, that’s exactly how certain Fallen Religions think: just because a man is a man, and a vagina is a vagina, then whatever the man does with his erection in proximity of a vagina is intrinsically valid, and the woman has no say in it.
This corrupt and mistaken perspective about “the nature of spirituality” and “what’s right and what’s wrong” is what leads to cults, normalized misogyny, and religious polygamy. They think rape and other abuses are valid because the “objects are right” — no matter how wrong the energetics, attitudes, and ideologies are.
Meanwhile the truth is, valid sex must come from a valid place in oneself — IE spiritual wholesomeness and integrity, all in service to some degree of Innocence.
Wholesomeness and integrity is not found in the “objects” of the material world. It’s found in the consciousness of the Beings interacting with the material world. It’s about how the world is interacted with — either Krystically or not. (That’s why your usage of that Black Hole Black Cube Black Screen Finite Technology Device doesn’t make you evil for using it, because you’ve “spiritualized” it by employing it in service to your consciousness, awareness, and accretion.)
With that understood, it’s clear gay people can be just as wholesome and integrous as straight people — and therefore so can gay sex.
The “objects of sex” are not what determines the integrity of sex.
Penises have been wielded like swords against Women throughout the ages, so does that make the penis intrinsically evil, just because some Men chose to be violators? No, because it’s not about the object or the organ, but how it is utilized by either consciousness or corruption.
(Tangent: Except where people are brainwashed by Satanic Liberalism, then I’m sure some of them do think the penis is intrinsically evil and should be chopped off of all men to “protect women from it.” They’re identifying with the object. So many righteous perspectives are defunct in this way, viewing “(in)validity” as intrinsic to the object. Both Liberal-Satanic and Conservative-Luciferian Evils mistake the (in)validity of various things as being within objects. This is why Luciferian Evil has historically demonized gay people. And it’s why Satanic Leftism goes after White Men these days: the object of skin color is invalid in that ideology. It doesn’t matter how wholesome or integrous that Man may be. He can be innocent in his consciousness, yet still guilty of “being the wrong object color.” And of course, this is the exact evil which Black People experienced for decades, before Politics and Alien Agendas flipped the script. Then there are the psychotic paradoxes, like “woman” not having any concrete definition and being, essentially, whatever a misogynistic man feels like a woman is. When the truth is, Woman is a definitive phenomenon that simply exists — but how a Woman is or how a Woman is treated is all in the actions of consciousness. So it is with Sex.)
And don’t think the Body isn’t in on it too. Ask any gay man who knows he’s a “bottom,” and he’ll likely tell you that his body definitely “wants it.” There’s an energetic activation or configuration which the Male Body is synchronized with, making gay sex functional at every level, from Body to Soul to Spirit to Avatar. The Body is not violated in this equation.
Yet regarding the significance of the Um-Shaddh-Eie, it’s clear that it must be interacted with from a place of care and love; which affirms the significance of Innocence in terms of gay sex. I’ve long had a sense that gay sex serves a counterweight to something very dark and evil things out in the crevices of the Cosmos. Sex performed from a place of true love, intimacy, and innocence is a healing event. (This is along the lines of what Speaker 1 was touching on at the end of the last clip, about the agendas seeking more than just feeding on energy.)
Sex performed from a place of Love and Innocence is sacred. And to be inside one’s partner, or have one’s partner inside oneself, is an unparalleled act of Divine Intimacy. For most people — gay men included — the desire of it is natural and unavoidable. This has little to do with “body parts.” This is essentially what Sex is at higher, non-incarnate levels: Field Blending, the merger of consciousness into mutual energetic oneness, as one as two separate individuations of consciousness can get. So of course it trickles down and manifests in Density 1 as well. The throughline of sex is all about achieving a state of higher spiritual union down here in a realm of physical separation — and gay men are not exempt.
Due to the ‘delicateness’ of gay sex, a Receptive man must not be frivolous with intercourse. He should engage with only a man who is worthy of entry. Both Men should be honoring their spirituality, innocence, and divinity.
That’s the unique heightened level integrity surrounding gay sex.
Of course, not all gay men honor that or even consider it — especially the ones brainwashed by Liberalism’s hedonism.
But then neither do many straight people, either. Again: the integrity or lack thereof is not in the object, but in the action, and the intent and innocence of that action. Straight people have engaged in unwholesome sex as much as anyone. They’ve come from the wrong places in themselves and the wrong modes of being, too.
From a spiritual standpoint, “straight” or “gay” is not what’s valid or invalid.
Ascribing (in)validity to objects and existences is an inverted religious mode of being, not wholesome spiritual mode of being.
Almost all people have been influenced and even harmed by the wayward ways of this artificial society and its rogue influences. Everyone has been targeted. Due to these influences and ensuing trauma and confusion, many people undermine themselves and operate from the wrong place in themselves, both gay and straight.
But of course, only gay people get blamed for deviancy, even if they have spiritual integrity. Fallen ideologies of all sorts obsess over objects as being the source of sacredness or evil, rather than God’s Living Consciousness and how well people live by that or not.
Shame
In sum, Homosexuality is a condition of Innocence, and gay sex has the requisite of Innocence.
Straight sex too, of course, but gay sex is just different, and furthermore there simply remains something consciously self-aware about being gay. Gay people don’t get to default into unconsciousness about their Sexuality. They must be conscious of it — and bring consciousness into it to heal it and enjoy it and honor it.
In a society riddled with ideologies which would so readily shame us for a simple D1 Orientation, Homosexuality forces gay people to be hyper aware of their Innocence. This feedback loop of reconciling D1 with the rest of our higher levels is what enables Homosexuality to serve as a spiritual accelerator and integrator. It’s barely about being gay, and mostly about all the things a gay person must contemplate and integrate and actualize for simply being gay.
God’s Nature is Innocence. Shame is when a person feels something is non-Godlike or is “outside of God.” False shame is when a person feels something natural is somehow unnatural or unworthy of being part-of God.
When we feel ashamed about a part of ourselves, it’s because we believe that part is unacceptable to God. It’s feeling as if a part of ourselves is “beside ourselves” or “shouldn’t be a part of us,” mimicking a deeper fear that it “shouldn’t be in-God” or “God doesn’t accept it.”
When we subconsciously think something “shouldn’t” be inside God, we feel false shame.
And yet, everything is inside God. All of our parts and pieces are inside God.
The spiritual trick is to love all of our parts just as much as God contains all of our parts. To be Godly with the parts we have instead of judge them as objects that are wrong. To not reject a part of ourselves just because someone’s judgement or ideology says to.
False Shame is when we feel something that simply exists, is wrong when it isn’t.
True Shame is when we approach existence from the wrong place in ourselves, from a place that isn’t wholesome or genuine. (Again, it’s about the mode, not the object. All things exist within God. But not all ways are as God dreamed.)
Having the Homosexual Orientation is not shameful.
But treating Homosexuality from an unwholesome place — both in the sense of religious evangelical people who judge it or abuse gay people, and also in the sense of gay people who don’t honor the divinity and spirituality in their own sexuality — is what’s shameful.
The secret of Spirituality is to settle for nothing less than Innocence as our state of being and mode of interacting with the world.
Section 3: Personal Perspectives
Being a Magnetic Man
I’d rather hole up as a hermit than discuss personal and private things, but just as KS and Homosexuality needs to be objectively discussed for the benefit of others, I’m seeing it’s important to discuss the nature of being a Magnetic Man in this lifetime.
Because this is a real phenomenon, that is spiritually valid, in spite religious-societal rejection and ridicule, and it offers a rich accretion for one’s consciousness.
Yet a lot of people just don’t ‘get it’.
I use the term “Magnetic Man” because the energy of my Aura/Field/Sexuality functions on EirA principles. Yet, I am not a Feminine Man at all — not at all ‘effeminate’. My Personality is quite Neutral-Masculine, and I can easily pass as “straight” with people who assume “Personality Gender” intrinsically corresponds to Orientation. Yet, Personality and Orientation are not necessarily an identical match when it comes to our Gender Energies. Neither Gender nor Sex automatically determines Orientation!
Being a Magnetic Man with a Masculine Personality has been a challenge I’ve had to learn how to reconcile, with almost no external reference points. (The movie Red, White, and Royal Blue Due — a great story in spite some influence by the Queer Agenda — is the first instance where I got watch a truly Magnetic Man in Henry. Witnessing his character arc changed my life.)
Due to my own circumstances and wounding and various past life influences, my delicate Femininity became very brittle and guarded (with a smidgeon of hysteria when it just couldn’t take it anymore), and earlier in this life I developed strong Faux Masculine armor that made me appear “manly,” but honestly it was just Toxic Masculinity.
Masculinity is not intrinsically toxic. (True Masculinity is quite beautiful.) But all three Genders can experience distortions and wounded expressions which can develop into toxicity.
First there is wounding. Then, if it’s not addressed and healed, it may result in behavior which is toxic. It’s not some big mystery.
And even though my Personality is somewhat Masculine, my energy never was, and I’ve had to recognize and shed a lot of programming that coerced me to try to “act like a man” or “be like a man” or “work like a man.”
Having a Male Personality was not sufficient for the programming that I absorbed: it admonished me to employ my energy like a Man too, and that turned into one of the biggest problems in my life.
Exploiting my own energy to “work hard” and “get things done” and “force reality to bend to my will” is precisely how I developed so many health issues. My own Toxic Masculinity was a sickness which overrode the healthfulness of my predominant Feminine Energy. Maleness became like a shield I could hide my wounding behind.
Now, the more I’ve taken off this toxic armor, the more I’ve returned to my true nature of being a rather soft and gentle being, deep down behind the façade of my Male Body and Masculine Personality.
Many people would never know this was my nature, and in a way I used to fool them to not know it — my wounding would play into their assumptions of how Manly or Masculine I was and just go along with it, instead of confronting the assumptions and being my true nature, all because I was afraid and ashamed of being Me.
So with others’ assumptions, I fawned and played dead to people-please.
Part of this wounding derives from a past life where I was a girl who lost her brother, which greatly traumatized her and left her all alone. The brother was very accepting, respecting, and encouraging of the girl’s Feminine Nature, but after his loss she was subjected to the stringent judgements of Victorian-era hostilities against women and their role in society, and possibly physical/sexual abuse as well. In this past life, Femininity was unsafe, invalidated, dismissed, and abused. All because she was Female. A part of my consciousness ‘learned’ that it wasn’t safe to be Feminine as a Woman.
This girl’s experience was one of the first things that began bubbling up in my spiritual journey of remembering past lives, lending to a sense that my Soul chose to have a Gay Male Life as a means to “keep my Femininity safe inside a Male Body.” (Note the irony that we do “choose” our Orientation — but at a higher Soul level, not at some Mental-Emotional-brainwashed-religious level.)
Being in a Male Body has allowed me to keep my Wounded Femininity under lock & key, until I could take off the defensive armor and tune back into my softer nature.
This is just one of the many ways that Homosexuality has a Spiritual purpose. While being gay is objectively enjoyable, it has also helped me heal profound wounds in myself, which I would not have been able to heal so well with the accretions of either Heterosexuality or a Female Body. I already experienced both of those things, and that’s where the wounding developed! (Not because they’re bad in and of themselves, but because bad things occurred in their context.)
So for this lifetime, it was time to switch things up to expedite healing.
Furthermore, my Feminine-Magnetic Sexual Energy from the past life, and its need to pair with Masculine-Electrical Sexual Energy, never went away; it just morphed into Male Homosexuality. Becoming Male did not replace or override my Magnetic Energy, it just rehoused it in a different vessel.
In Toxic Patriarchal Society, effeminate Men are highly stigmatized. (Effeminate Men may also be suffering from wounded Femininity which is hyper-expressing and not as Feminine as it appears, since sometimes this Femininity seems very fake and not organic. Also, True Patriarchy is an awesome thing, just like True Matriarchy. But in this world, we tend to get the corruptions and inversions of awesome things.) The Feminist Movement doesn’t realize that developing excessive Masculinity as a Woman just to “go to work like a man” isn’t actually Feminism, it’s juts more Toxic Patriarchy.
Even in Women, Femininity has been demeaned.
Meanwhile, being a Magnetic Man has left me in no man’s land.
I was never in the closet about being gay, but I was in the closet about being Feminine-Magnetic. My fundamental energetic nature felt rejection, like it was inferior, and like I had to fix it and be stronger than it. So I avoided society’s stigma against Femininity and played into “what Men should be,” perpetuating my own wounding until it caught up with me.
Eventually, as expected, this all began crumbling apart. The armor and the anger and the aggression just didn’t feel like me, and it didn’t make me feel good in life.
Yet spiritually, it’s also clear to me that becoming a Woman wouldn’t have been an automatic spiritual solution for my wounding either.
So I had to become a Man … and dare to return to my Nature, too.
Being a Woman wasn’t the solution to my Femininity, and being a Man wasn’t the solution to my Wounded Feminine. I realized I had to actually return to my Magnetic Energetic Nature and accept it, while inside the ‘safety’ of Malehood.
Polarity Balancing
KS and its arena has helped me work through these inner complexities.
When I discovered ManU (the Gender I call “Neutraline,” in line with Masculine and Feminine) it was quite the epiphany. It helped me understand why my Personality was neither hyper manly nor very effeminate. It filled in a gap in the New Age lectures about “balancing the Masculine and Feminine.”
For a period I had put ManU on a pedestal, thinking it was “the way Men should be.” (The way I should be… The way other men should be so they don’t hurt me like toxic men once did…)
But over time I recognized this was just a coping mechanism: I was still avoiding my Feminine wounding, and I was still avoiding how much of that wounding was wrought by Toxic Masculinity, thus afflicting my relationship with my own Inner Masculinity. My Magnetic Wounding feared Toxic Masculinity — especially my own which burnt me out and ruined my health — meaning I could neither abide in my Femininity inside myself, nor align to wholesome Masculinity in my hologram.
The Masculine abuses that harmed me occurred mostly in lives past, but then in the KS Swamp I began bearing witness to and having to interface with unhealthy Masculinity in this life. In the name of Kryst, it tricked me, controlled me, ridiculed me, and even attacked me. It was just like old times!
These reflections, and perhaps wounded-karmic alignments, cornered me into working through how harmful Split Non-Krystic Masculinity has been in the journey of my consciousness. (This Splitting between inner Masculinity vs Femininity explains the whole “Shield Split” that has haunted the KS World: internal M vs F splitting manifesting into external splitting. It’s not about any of the fanciful nonsense both sides come up with involving entities and “dark flowering” and blah blah blah.)
Simultaneously to enduring Masculine abuses, the wounding around my suppressed Femininity began coming to the surface to process. I was being re-activated into my angry armor, while having to face the reality that this is not whom I wanted to be (and not the situations I wanted to be in).
ManU was the neutral ground that I adopted in order to begin healing myself. It was a stepping stone, until I could defuse and de-charge-from the Masculine wounding and begin accepting my Feminine energetic nature, which is not Neutraline at all.
Although I don’t have Feminine personality traits, I totally have Feminine energy traits: the need to feel safe in order to open up and blossom; the need to flow and be at ease without stringent restrictions; the proclivity for reception and feeling rather than giving or exerting; and even things like needing to be taken care of and be provided for.
This is what it’s like to be a Magnetic Man that people assumed was so Masculine and which my wounding played into, to hide from its own pain. I tried to outrun the fundamental traits and needs of my energetic nature by cosplaying as a Masculine Man, but it was all doomed to fall apart. I was living as a Fake Man, setting myself up for a Quarter Life Crisis.
The need for safety is a huge Feminine trait. Safety is fundamental to healing.
Sometimes, when I felt safe in certain friendships or occasional encounters with strangers, things got messy because so much unconscious wounding began bubbling up and I didn’t know why or what to do with it. In fact, many of my “Crushes” actually derived from experiencing profound safety in the presence of a guy. It wasn’t romantic but rather my wounded subconscious feeling like it had found a Man or some ManA energy which was safe instead of threatening, thereby allowing things to surface for me to process and heal. Some of the Safe Men in my life contributed to my spiritual healing in ways they may never understand.
We cannot heal our pain when we’re on-guard — and Femininity cannot flow when there are threats abound. But the moment safety reigns, wounds begin to unravel, even in spite our best efforts to “keep ourselves together.” This is much like the phenomenon of animals shaking after a threatening encounter. It’s an automatic process of consciousness.
And of course, archetypally, it is Masculinity which “does the safety.” And Masculinity which provides. And Masculinity which offers healthy guardrails to allow the Feminine Flow to be functional and not splatter everywhere.
At least that’s what True Masculinity does.
I’ve been subjected to a good deal of unhealthy Masculinity, which did not support the Feminine in general and which therefore did not spark with my Femininity to form functional relationships or outcomes.
At some point I wisened up and got curious about why so much unhealthy Masculinity was in my life.
Back in my most recent past life (AKA just a decade ago) I red-lined my own Masculinity to try to force my way through life and make money and be successful. The typical conditioning and obsession that Men are subjected to in this society.
Then when all of that fell apart, my ManA basically went offline while I floated around in the void of Feminine healing.
This has recently been coming full circle, where I’ve had to simultaneously settle into my magnetic nature, while gently turning up the dial on my own electricity to begin lighting up my life in a functional way.
Without being in my nature and with my own ManA fried and offline, my external Gender reflections weren’t the greatest concerning the ManA. Things didn’t quite spark between me and others.
Splits Abound
The reason there wasn’t sparking, is because the external Masculine manifestations were split in themselves: they were not in-union with their own Inner Feminine.
Likewise, I was split in myself: compensating with excess Faux Masculinity at the expense of my Wounded Femininity, even though I was never actually able to suppress or outrun the Feminine mechanics that were operating my life. Since my own magnetic nature was still operating “beneath my awareness,” this led me into undesirable situations with equally-split Masculinity, which led to a great deal of stress and combustion with those hyper-ManA corruptions, until I wisened up and began disengaging from it all to go lick my wounds.
As usual, I did try to explain-explain-explain the issues a few times, but with no results — because others didn’t want to get it or heal themselves, or weren’t in their own Divine Right Timing of getting it and healing themselves.
Regardless, when it comes to the KS Swamp, it wasn’t pleasant to be in a realm obsessed with “Partiki Phasing” which couldn’t even wrap its head around how that downsteps and translates into Human interactions.
As much as a Partiki must function internally in order to function with other Partikis, people must phase within themselves in order to phase together in cooperation and compatibility.
“When we start to embrace the concept of polarity, we come to recognize that our power to Love, Manifest and Ascend lies within unifying the polarities.” – Twins by Speaker 2
There are people who operate on Feminine, Masculine, or Neutraline energy mechanics. And when they interact with other people — especially people operating on different mechanics from their own — the relationships can only function if both parties are functioning (phasing) inside of themselves between their own internal Trifecta of Gender Energies. If one or both people are split and operating on Rogue/Wounded/Toxic Femininity/Masculinity/Neutralinity, then the interaction is at high risk of devolving to the lowest common denominator of those distortions.
A big part of “Kryst” and “Christos” is literally about our Inner ManA+EirA polarities being in-union together, and thereby being able to phase-up into the ManU as-one. We can have different percentages of balance between the three energies, at least down here at the Human level, but we all have all three energies within us and must “make them work together.”
That is literally the foundation of Eternal Life: the Trifecta functioning together as-one, breathing in and out with God.
Meanwhile people obsessed with Eternal Life, couldn’t even manage relationships that phased together functionally. And my own splitting led to the same malfunctions in some of my relationships.
So I took notice and realized it was better to be Free from it all. The abuses and overcoming the abuses is what allowed me to heal anyway. My Femininity was highly wounded in my subconscious, and I needed to begin capturing that wounding at a conscious level of awareness, and Dark Lessons lined up for achieving just that. I reached and retrieved some of the most important parts of myself, and I hope others gained the same in themselves!
The biggest thing I had to develop was respecting myself — respecting my own energetic nature. Others not respecting Femininity is what wounded me. Yet the solution wasn’t to fight them to become wholesome in themselves, but simply to respect myself.
To respect my Femininity. My softness. My flow.
I’m not effeminate and have no desire to be a Woman.
And my energy is not ManU at all and I can’t imagine being with a ManU Man, nor an EirA Man.
But I am a Man with Magnetic Energy who is compatible with ManA Men who also incarnated into Homosexuality. It seems complex or contradictory, yet it’s all about balance and harmony.
What many people don’t realize is that Homosexuality is subject to the same Polarity Expression & Balancing as Heterosexuality. When people don’t comprehend Homosexuality, it betrays how little they comprehend Spirituality.
Homosexuality, Heterosexuality, Spirituality, Polarity: it’s all the same thing at a deeper, higher level.
In couples making love, regardless if gay or straight, it’s just Universal Mechanics playing out.
Electrical-ManA-Penetration…
Magnetic-EirA-Reception…
Polarity Union.
And gay men are not exempt from Universal Mechanics!
Seeing only “the same Bodies” without seeing the complimentary energies is such a blindness. I call it “being blind beyond the eyeballs.” People’s DNA is so turned off they can’t grasp a reality beyond biological nihilistic materialism as measured by their physical eyesight and finite mental paradigms.
But there are way higher and deeper things occurring with these little Bodies we have, and those mechanics are spiritual, and that makes Homosexuality spiritual too.
My Femininity absolutely needs Masculinity to interface with, and it’s damn liberating to realize that. Liberating to stop feeling tugged between “not being gay enough because I’m not effeminate and hate drag” to “not being man enough because I’m not straight with strong ManA energy.” Liberating to take off my angry armor for being a make-believe man. Liberating to stop suppressing my Femininity due to wounding, and to stop using ManU as an idealized middle ground in this tug of war when it’s barely relevant to my energetic nature.
It’s liberating to just start being Me.
I’m a Magnetic Man who needs an Electrical Man.
No different from a Magnetic Woman who needs an Electrical Man.
No different from Femininity which needs Masculinity.
No different from EirA which needs ManA, in order to spark together and phase into the Eternal Breath of God, hand-in-hand.
Marriage: Inner Then Outer
Ever since learning of Neville Goddard’s approach, called Living In The End, I applied that to the prospect of my Beloved.
I imagined being married with him and what that would feel like. An Inner Vow.
Going on a year now, it’s been an interesting experience to live with. When married partners are apart, they’re stilled married. And that’s what this feels like: I’m married, just apart. Same sensation, just different sequence of experience. I’m living in the end of my true dreams and desires.
Sexual Safety
One outcome of this orientation of my consciousness is that it has encouraged a sense of commitment and abstinence.
One of the most uncanny discoveries of the KS Swamp was the sexual corruptions coming out of the shadows. People can do whatever they want with their Sexuality, sure, but some of this stuff never should’ve been at the center of things.
I felt caught between some of the most hyper-Liberal-promiscuous ideology and the most lifeless-Conservative-religious ideology at the same time. These experiences emphasized for me the need to guard my sexuality against rogue energies, rogue entities, and rogue ideologies, none of which were wholesome or Krystic.
In fact, the KS Swamp forced me to deliberate whether I’d even want a Man who’s obsessed with KS. KS is very unhealthy for certain people, especially the ManA which has not yet achieved wholeness. A sane guy who’s simply in tune with himself and his heart can be more wholesome than people who “know all this spiritual stuff” and can’t even actualize wholesomeness.
Married in Essence
The most special thing about my Inner Vow is that it seems to have made me more and more aware of my Beloved’s energy. I can feel him, and feel what his presence would be like with me. It’s not that I’ve found his field “out in the ethers,” just that I’ve gained an inner awareness of what this partner will feel like and what potentials will exist in the partnership.
This is very special for me. I always knew there was someone “out there” for me.
And part of the secret was finding him “in here,” inside myself.
I remember years ago when I craved for “a soulmate.” The funny thing is I manifested around seven soulmates — two of them gay guys!— yet there was never any romantic destiny there. These Soulmates served as friendships or mirrors, and eventually faded away.
And in spite a couple of semi-romantic relationships, I don’t think I’ve ever been in love with anyone. Is that a sad life? I don’t think so. I’m holding on to a higher vision of Love that I’d rather manifest compared to what the encounters of the past could offer.
Since it never manifested or came anywhere close to tangible, I always sensed there was a deeper connection waiting for me at a later point in my reality — something more profound than the Soulmates I had once obsessed over or the encounters that came and went.
Even with KS, this “Twin” stuff never resonated with me. And back in the New Age, I saw a lot of weird depraved stuff going on in the pursuit of “Twin Flames.” (Stuff that’s very similar to what’s going on in both the AMCC Religion and even in the FT Cult.)
But the concept of a Beloved Relationship is something that just clicked for me when I came across it in 2020. It’s the same thing as “Twin,” I suppose, but feels less “obsessive.” What I’m expecting — and what I can feel with my Beloved’s energy — is that we are intrinsically compatible and “just click” together.
Yes, there’s a sense of completing each other… But it’s more nuanced than that, a nuance that needs to be openly elaborated due to how many people misconstrue it.
Marry Yourself
A true Outer Union with another person is not about someone outside ourselves completing us.
It’s about us completing ourselves by re-unifying ourselves within, and then sharing that with someone who’s done the same inside themselves.
Not 1 + 1 = 2, but Whole + Whole becomes Something More.
It’s about making our own ManA and EirA love each other and work together, so that as-one they can unite in-ManU and return to God in holy matrimony with another person who’s done the same.
It’s about Inner Union and Inner Marriage first.
And then, it shall manifest.
That said, I do suspect some people get the manifestation first and then have to catch up on all the inner work. But for me, it’s been clear I must complete myself first, and then life will reflect my completion. I’m here to live an inner-first life. I can’t have whatever I want if I’m not an embodied frequency match to it.
(Hello, Feminine-Magnetic Mechanics: needing to be what you want to receive. I can’t manly masculinize myself into manifesting my Beloved who’s meant to be the manly man between me and him. A True ManA person won’t be activated by a Wounded EirA person compensating with Faux ManA. Gotta respect those Universal Mechanics.)
On the other side of the coin, I know that if I don’t have the outer life or union I deeply desire, it’s because there’s something deep in me to discover and integrate before it will reflect externally, or at least before my Soul wants to cue it up.
Furthermore, I realized my Outer Union is existing on a way higher frequency than I’d been living at for the last many years, including the oh-so-serious attitude that made me a match for the worst parts of the KS Swamp.
My Outer Union exists on a timeline with a very high and happy frequency. So I see now how exiting the swamplands of this Veca has allowed me to grow (and also return to) my own frequency and buoyancy, which is lining me up for a new phase of life experiences in divine timing. I’m so glad I’ve regained my Freedom and my Happiness. They are the foundation of a new future for me.
They are the foundation of Beloved Love for me.
The Magic of Inner Union
My curiosity around Femininity and Masculinity goes back years, where I’d devour any book that mentioned it, or hoarded little Pinterest graphics to be referenced again later, because I was still trying to make sense of it.
It’s interesting to me that I had to get to KS and hang out in the ManU space for a while before the picture began coming together. This phase helped me attain some Neutrality, from which I was better able to observe my Polarity. But only once I stopped idealizing ManU, was I able to settle into my side of the Polarity and heal my wounds with the other side.
Something I had to learn, which was missing from the New Agey Masculine & Feminine content, is that there even exists a third ManU state of energy/expression, and that this is relevant to the core Partiki level of Creation.
This is important because the ManU shows how Polarity is not about “Masculine on one end, versus Feminine on the other end, trying to make things work together without killing each other.” KS teaches us how the Eternal aspect of the Partiki does not even function unless the Masculine and Feminine are united across their spectrum, in order to then blend into ManU beyond their polarization.
And since we all have the Trifecta within us, this union must occur within ourselves in order to ever experience “Love.” It’s not about a “lonely and incomplete ManA” matching up with a “lonely and incomplete EirA” and “living happily ever after” like Hollywood depicts.
It’s about two Whole Beings coming together and generating a wholeness greater than the sum of their individuality.
It’s not about “opposites completing each other” but wholeness amplifying wholeness into greater wholeness.
The spiritual math is not linear, it’s exponential.
“When you put 2 together they have 3 times the power than each alone and the 2 become 3 and the 3 become 1! They exist as intensified energy forms.” – Twins by Speaker 2
This is what led to a light bulb in my understanding of “Masculinity and Femininity,” and in particular how Masculinity had wounded my Femininity.
For Masculinity to truly be whole, it must be in-union inside the Masculine Man. The Man can’t be hyped up with ManA while rejecting his EirA and falling short of his ManU. He’s got to have all three in order. His ManA might be the strongest in his anatomy/template/body/sexuality, but the Partiki functionality of his consciousness must be phasing and functioning.
That is what makes True Masculinity: ManA which is hand-in-hand with its own inner EirA.
That is what makes a “ManA Man”: a Man who is whole and functioning/phasing in himself, even with his energy biased toward Masculinity.
And that’s what I ‘need’ and desire: a ManA Man who is whole in himself, with his inner Masculine+Feminine married and sparking between themselves. It is only this type of Man which will ever understand, appreciate, and respect my gentle Magnetic Manhood.
Before this epiphany, I was mistaking ManU as the only form of “wholeness” rather than as a third entity unto itself, when actually a Man’s dominant energy nature can fall anywhere on the spectrum of ManA–ManU–EirA and still be whole in themselves. Maybe ManU is purely ManA + EirA at the quantum level, but at the Human level the Male Body Polarity can contain any balance or percentage of the three energies. (The ManU energetic nature remains a bit of a mystery to me as to how it manifests, but I see it as along the lines of stoic or studious, which is a very different type of Man compared to one who’s active or doing a lot of things.)
While for me, the combination that complements and unlocks my consciousness is Man + True Masculinity.
And that lock will only open if I have the dignity and courage to be a Man functioning with True Magnetism.
Meanwhile, the form of Masculinity which harmed me in the past was Malfunctioning Masculinity. It was Masculine alright, but it was wounded and broken and out of touch. It could not spark or phase or cooperate with the Feminine. It was a Man split in himself and only functioning on one cylinder, while chasing Feminine completion outside of himself, or rejecting the Femininity in me because “I was a man” — or worse: manipulating or bullying me because “I wasn’t ManA enough” and they thought they could get away with it or that I would “take it like a man.”
(A Split Man / Malfunctioning ManA often attracts a Split Woman / Malfunctioning EirA. They polarize together in unholy matrimony, with great combustion. These are “false unions” and occur so frequently in this Matrix. Split people meet up with split people, thinking two halves make a whole. The splitting in themselves make them crave each other, not knowing the sense of completion will come from marrying their forlorn Inner Half.)
So I’ve realized that I’m not just “gay for men,” and I’m not just “a Magnetic Man needing some Electricity,” but I’m also a spiritual person ever working toward wholeness inside himself, who desires another spiritual person working toward wholeness, who’s also a man, who’s also electrical, who’s also gay.
This is what I meant by the complexity inherent in Sexuality. There’s a lot going on, especially when we strive for our Sexuality to be spiritually functional.
“Man meets Woman and lives happily ever after” is sooo 1900s. Forget the Bodies or Orientation, some of us are dealing with multiple levels of ourselves needing to interface with multiple levels of another person, and all of those levels working together in harmony, which can only happen if each person is harmoniously whole within themselves.
Hollywood doesn’t often make movies about these people and relationships…
But this Inner Union before Outer Union is the way things are truly meant to be. In KS this is addressed with the Modha AdhurA. And it’s the magic that Speaker 2 talked about in his Return to Innocence essays:
"I truly believe that restoration of this MAGICAL UNITY is the last great, ever-hidden, secret concerning the purpose of the Angelic Human. This [INNER] UNITY is the missing creative force of the Source given “Oneness”… It's PERSONAL."
Marriage is a personal affair before an external one. It’s the great secret to spiritual mysticism. It’s the key that reassembles our consciousness into the way it’s supposed to be functioning.
The New Age (and the KS Religion) wants us to unite with external things to funnel our quantum into dying entities and dying realities…
But the true magic — the true Christos and Kryst — is one half of ourselves marrying the inner half of ourselves. In that way, we can be at-one, in-joy, and in-love with Life.
This article can conclude with one of those little Pinterest quotes I once found:
Don’t search for Love. Search for Life and do what you love, and then Love shall find you.