My name is Timothy.
My name means Honor God.
And while I love many people, places, and things: I do not prioritize or put on a pedestal anything less than True God (Aah) and God’s Nature (Innocence) — especially not for the persuasions of fear, control, or evil. In fact, anytime I’ve over-prioritized someone or something, it serves as a sign I needed to return to my personal core — and to The Core of Life.
Against all distractions and manipulations I strive to Honor God, and more practically to elaborate elements of Truth and Awareness which support a person’s relationship with the Godness within them.
Due to this, I hold myself to high standards … yet fall short everyday. Some days falling further down than the day before. There’s a historical risk of viewing God as “perfection,” but I have found God to be something different: Life. Up and down, topsy-turvy, and never quite as perfect as you imagine it … yet always somehow right. The raw livingness that we get to experience with our consciousness.
However much I might want to beat myself up for mistakes and shortcomings, I’ve learned to not control and judge myself, but instead let my standards be a clarifying North Star toward which I maintain aim, course-correcting deviations and picking up the pieces as I go. Sometimes a correction so big is required that it demands a new course, one which will steward better healing and wellbeing.
This is a new course for me.
I was guided into the “Keylontic Science Community” — or “KS World” as I’ll call it — sometime in 2022. I learned a lot, much I never expected, not all of it wholesome, yet some of it brilliant. I have completed my journey there and it’s time to move on to higher spiritual grounds.
So here I am. Here I will write.
O Aquareion
This website is about detailing the Freedom Teachings (FT) and related spiritual insights from my own perspective.
An Aquareion perspective and point of view.
In retrospect, I realized the primary reason I was guided to the FT was to reawaken to the existence of Aquareion deep down inside me — another universe so bright and free, wherefrom certain Beings came into this universe to assist it during this pivotal moment in Creation.
When you start waking up and realizing how out of place you feel, you start thinking you’re from another planet, right? I did for a while … something was still off. Even other planets felt foreign! (I remember their lifetimes: one stuck in a simulation, one decimated by an invasion. Honestly, Earth is better.)
Then some time later I heard about a “blue universe” and was advised that I came from there. Cool … but I didn’t know what that really meant for me.
Then some time after that I wandered across the FT, and the word Aquareion just kept sticking out. Took me longer than it should have to cognize that aqua is blue.
I began hunting for the little mentions of this word in the content, learning about how it’s an Eckasha (a 4-Universe Veca Cluster) that’s assisting this local Matrix (known as Procyak) via the Krystal River (a conduit which is spanning these levels of Creation).
Aquareion is a pure, unadulterated, unfallen Universe Cluster. I came from there and I remember it to some degree, primarily its freedom and frequency.
So the primary aim of this website is to anchor and embody the Aquareion frequency as I know it, and as much as I can hold it inside myself (which until recently was a huge uphill challenge), in order to transmit it through my words, ideas, and perspectives and give it a place in this world.
This Matrix does not feel like home to me. I’ve had to realize I feel most at home in my own frequency, and my own unique remembrance of Aquareion’s frequency. For many years I have lost myself in the heavy tides of this world’s energy, so this will be my place to simply anchor inward and ripple out, instead of drowning in all the chaos.
And since it’s about Aquareion and has a connection to the Kryst Teachings, I figured it’s worth sharing.
Because I want others to know and feel Aquareion too.
Epiphanies on the Tour of Duty
One of the biggest integrations in my life journey was recognizing that I am a foreigner to this whole Matrix and have felt out of place no matter which planet I’ve visited. I’ve had many Soul Directives guiding me to explore and experience many things, but at the end of the lifetime this is all just a “Tour of Duty.” And this lifetime feels like my last in this Matrix, where I’m wrapping things up. It’s bittersweet…
I never really fit in here, something I’ve suffered from in many of my lives. I’ll connect to people expecting the same depth and sincerity that is so natural back home, but so often have discovered the other person won’t really care about me. (Because we didn’t have a deeper spiritual resonance or higher purpose together, which I hadn’t yet figured out.) Or it’ll be that they can’t reciprocate depth and connection due to their own level of consciousness or own personal issues, leaving me to accept their state of being while feeling lonely. Or instead, due to their own convictions and corruptions, they’ll actively exploit my sincerity and energy and try to have their way with me, leaving me either heartbroken, infuriated, or disturbed.
Yeah, I’ve met all sorts of Beings here.
There are some very lovely people here in this Matrix, but also some horrible ones. To be honest, the way I’ve felt is that this Matrix has not been very welcoming to its Alien Visitors & Volunteers (Voyagers!). You come here expecting “the spiritual circles” to at least understand you and make a space for you … but then after some time they start trying to dress you in their image and make you one of them; and dissing your background and origin, instead of respecting and honoring your own heritage and what you bring to the table.
I did not come to this Matrix to assimilate with the Natives and their ways. I came to assist, learn, and teach, once I figured out enough of the learning. Over time I’ve been guided to special resonant individuals with whom I can hold a nice connection and that is enough for me. Meanwhile I lack co-resonance with many people because we’re just not meant for each other. And then for some others, I had to acknowledge them as dark teachers and nothing more, leaving them behind while carrying forth my own lessons and wisdoms.
In this Matrix, there are many distressing things which are normalized and justified, things that cannot even exist in a Pure Universe. Think of every horror and hardship you’ve witnessed in the world, and sit with the implications that there’s a universe where none of it can exist. Completely pure and free from it. That’s what many people yearn for deep down; they know things here are not right and start to wonder what went wrong.
One good aspect of the FT is that it explains much of what happened to mess up this Matrix, and that helps orient a person amidst this chaos.
Personally, I underestimated how unright things are here. I knew I was coming into a battleground, but I was a pure and naive soul upon arrival, fresh out of a Pure Universe that does not and cannot prepare you for what goes down here. For many lifetimes this Matrix has hardened me into something I had never been: wounded, angry, and suffering.
But this was part of my Tour of Duty. I came here to comprehend Evil, and so I had to experience it. Had to get my DNA dirty in this Matrix. Not so much in being or becoming Evil, but rather in being confronted, controlled, and traumatized by Evil, and the downstream effects of Evil which make hurt people hurt people. Learning what this is all about, first-hand. Then seeing the damage it did on me and what it made me become, and the mistakes I’d then make from this unresolved suffering, becoming the hurt person who’s hurt people.
I’ve learned the ways of this Matrix via pain, and via healing from that pain.
This led to the most magical discovery of all: we can get wounded in here, and still return to our True Nature. Still return to our Purity. Still return to our Innocence.
We can even do harm, unintentionally and accidentally, from the suffering we’ve taken on; but we can also try to make up for it, and try to do better in ourselves upon seeing the consequences of our actions.
This is a messed up Matrix.
But all is not lost. Hope is not lost.
My Tour of Duty is how I learned what the Beings in this Matrix are really going through. Beings outside this Matrix don’t fully know; it’s theoretical. But I decided to Know — and to help God Know via my experience here. To let God see through me.
And most of all, to discover for myself that the ways of this world can be overcome. Not that it’ll be easy, but that it can be done.
After lifetimes of pain, and years of wayward exploration in spiritual and personal development circles, it dawned on me this is my lifetime to simply return myself to my original condition. To shed the shenanigans I’ve adopted… To purify the impurities in me… To upright my wrongs…
After my Awakening I pursued so many spiritual spaces and paradigms, looking for guidance and clarity. Found some neat things. But just like other planets, things still didn’t feel right. Even the “spirituality” on Earth is strange and foreign and missing something.
Then I found the Freedom Teachings. Since the first tidbits I could feel the spiritual purity in it. (Most of it, anyway. There are nuances.)
But still, I was suffering from a blindspot the last couple of years: not realizing I had to transcend the FT too.
That led me to the real spiritual activation I’ve been needing and seeking. Like a lightbulb turning on I realized the only spirituality I’ve ever needed was to return to my own inner state of being and immerse back into my own energy — into my own spirit which has already known Purity in the past, and which has now endured Impurity without accepting it as a replacement, but instead as a challenge to overcome it.
All I really needed is to stop getting caught up in the chaos of the local frequencies and instead anchor my dormant Aquareion frequencies.
The felt-sense memory of Aquareion has been my personal reference for Purity, Consciousness, and Spirituality my whole life, way before my Awakening. It was innate and intuitive. How’d I ever lose it? Why did I ever leave it?
To expand my awareness via amnesia and do my job as part of my Tour of Duty, I guess.
Over time the ways of this Matrix squeezed the frequencies out of me, until I became somewhat a product of this world … which I then resisted and resented, making me so angry. That anger and disgust was my trap that kept me from liberating myself.
I had once known myself but now I was lost.
So my spiritual path isn’t much more complicated than returning to my personal original nature and awareness — not to develop a new one.
Some people are growing and exploring their consciousness and that’s magnificent. I’m not implying I’m “enlightened” or fully actualized, as past pains and mistakes have shown me otherwise. I remember Purity, but I am not Pure while here. What I’m really emphasizing is that I just needed to return to being the Me I had already Been. Because that was the Me that arrived here from another world, and that was the Me that was already good enough to accomplish that trip and be worthy of this spiritual journey in this Matrix. If my consciousness got me here from there, then I’m good enough As I Am, in spite the complaints and demands of religiosity.
I was qualified to explore Evil in this Wild West of a Matrix — and the only force strong enough to keep me from being pulverized by it, is the force that resides within me, at my core. Nothing outside of me. Nothing in any of the teachings of this world.
Sure, I had grown plenty since being birthed into a Pure Universe. (And now have even more growth to do after getting dirty in this Matrix.) But The Me I Was already had so much going for it — and was anchored into those Aquareion frequencies and the essence of my Soul. So my spirituality is just about returning to my inner home and shedding this world’s influences — especially the influences of “spirituality” (religiosity) which thinks it knows better than my own Beingness.
I share my personal perspective because maybe there are others who need that reminder for themselves. That you don’t have to run around trying to become something outside of yourself. That there’s something Pure within you. That there may be pain to purge back to an original wellbeing, but that’s not dead-end. That you have a core Spark which emanates an Eternal Flame, and that your Soul has its own essence you can bask in. Maybe so much in your life has not been well or right, but there’s still somewhere inside you that can guide you.
The greatest spiritual teaching occurs within.
The most which these external teachings can do is simply reignite our Spark within. That’s all. Reorient us inward.
And this is where I have felt tension and contrast with the FT and the KS World…
Freedom
For two years I got sucked into the KS World as part of my Tour of Duty.
What I have found is that there is a subtle religion running amok. The KS Religion is what I’ll call it. [Upon deeper reflection since writing this article, I recognize how there is a larger KS World, which is fairly functional and wholesome. But within it lies the KS Swamp, which is home to heavy densities incongruent with the Kryst being preached.]
Here I am, a spiritual foreigner from some far away place, and a spiritual refugee from the hardships of this world. Now after years of spinning my wheels with spiritual follies, at long last I come across the grand Teachings of Kryst, which proclaim beautiful things about God and Freedom and how to handle our pain, impurities, and suffering.
Finally I found the Holy Land … so I thought.
But the truth is, across decades of this life, I was very wise and fortunate in avoiding religious indoctrination and related trauma … until getting into the KS Religion, where it finally got me.
This conundrum I experienced is a mind-breaking paradox. Because there really is so much value, activation, and epiphany inside the Kryst Teachings as represented through the FT.
It is the antidote to religion — so how could it become a religion? Hm.
As a spiritual refugee, I did not encounter much Freedom, but rather much Control. Being told what to think and how to live. Having my consciousness picked apart in front of others, inappropriately without solicitation. Getting deceived into thinking my insights could contribute something positive while really they were being silenced and redirected beyond my own inspirations.
It was like walking in the desert for so long, that you see a mirage of water. But when you fall to your knees, it’s just more sand. But this sand is even dryer and hotter than all the other sand — because this is the sand that deceives you. It’s dishonest sand. At least the sand that’s been soaking up the sun and burning your feet was honest. The sand you try to quench your thirst with is the harsher sand.
That is the KS Religion, housed in the KS Swamp, a mirage of Kryst and Spirituality.
So it was time to upgrade my perspective. I was getting super frustrated and angry, but I had to realize it was me making the mistake by getting so mixed up in it. When what I really needed was distance from it.
So I’ve left it behind to actually focus on my spirituality.
It was I who had to empower myself and discover that I AM FREE after years of seeking for a solution to my suffering. Free from needing external spirituality. Free from control. Free from indoctrination. Free from deception. Free from the lies told about me. Free from the abuses that picked on me.
Free from my naïvité that overly trusted aspects of this Matrix, because now I’m all the wiser.
Free from the religiosity which strives to conquer Kryst, yet again.
Past Proves Future: what happened two millennia ago has crept back up again.
This is where things really began clicking for me. I got into the KS World to explore it for its gold … but had to get out of it due to the hollow walls of religiosity.
I was guided to the FT to rediscover Aquareion … and upon seeing that spirituality in this Matrix ain’t quite all it’s cracked up to be, I realized I just didn’t need to be there and needed to go within myself.
I accepted that I am a foreigner to this Matrix.
And therefore: the FT is not really, fully, truly … for me.
Recognizing that was such a huge weight of my chest.
Yes, the Kryst Teachings contain universal truths and healings, and the work helps so many people who find it, especially the Natives of this Matrix. (As long as they stick to the work and the true development, and beware the religiosity and entities vying for control of their consciousness.)
But in myself I had to confront the fact that something about the FT is simply “Made For This Matrix” and therefore “wasn’t made for me.” I see a subtle difference between “The Kryst Teachings” which are certainly universal throughout the Cosmos, versus “The Freedom Teachings” which are unique to this spacetime circumstance.
The circumstances in which the Kryst Teachings were conveyed — with the factions, wars, distortions, and everything else going on here — are local to this Matrix and not universal. And my spiritual path was about returning to the spirituality I already knew deep within me. Therefore, much of the FT … just is not for me.
What a relief, after two years trying to tighten a box around my soul and wondering why I never fit and didn’t feel comfortable and couldn’t get along with everyone else so well. Trying to fit into this box — or worse, try to force it to be bigger when it’s not so interested in growing — caused me so much grief and anger. This foolishness squeezed out my karma and trauma and cornered me into becoming my worst self.
It never felt right. I never felt right.
Because doing this to myself was not right.
It was just a specific phase of my Tour of Duty and that phase has ended … yet a new phase continues inspired by it.
The phase of returning to my Innate Spirituality, while also maintaining curiosity and enthusiasm about the parts of the FT that stick out to me. Because there were things beyond the topic of Aquareion which also inspired me and activated me and which I wish to highlight over time. And I was never wanting to diss or be cynical about the FT. I just had to step back and disentangle myself, which has allowed me to see the significance of this content and appreciate what it means for people here.
So this my blog is my place to explore the FT — free from influence.
A place to touch on what intrigues me and elaborate what it means for me, and maybe that will offer something for others too. Even with my path being about Innate Spirituality instead of External Spirituality or Local Spirituality, there are still things in this body of work which have helped me and merit honorable mention.
As a spiritual refugee of this Matrix, there are also issues with the KS Religion and religiosity in general that need to be articulated, so that others who might be more vulnerable to religious traps can be on the lookout and avoid getting caught up in it. I don’t care about names; I’ve left several of those names behind in order to secure the peace of my sovereignty and hermitude.
At a certain level it doesn’t matter “who does what,” because people can grow and change. (But will they? That’s on them.) What really matters what’s being done and whether you can spot it, understand the implications of it, and avoid getting caught up in it yourself. There are hints and clues that can help a person refine their Awareness and strengthen their own Discernment. I wish I had gotten a manual before I got lost in these issues myself.
God & Kryst are the true antidote to religion and corruption, and knowing how to orient to that and walk across the sandy desert is what can keep you safe from the wayward ways of this Matrix.
The Kryst Teachings are about making sure you’re Free. To be with God. To be your Soul. To be your Self.
In Honor of God,
Timothy
3 July 2024
PS: There is no religion in Aquareion.
Addendum
Early August.
As I’ve continued to write and thereby simultaneously work through my emotions, energies, sentiments, and realizations, I’ve developed greater awareness and now need to clarify something.
There is a “KS World at large.”
And then within that there is a subsection which is the KS Religion — which in some later writings I began calling the KS Swamp. (I edited a section earlier in the article to reflect this classification.)
There are actually two subsets to the KS Religion: the Corrupt ManA-Masculine-Patriarchal FT-Narcissistic Religion, and the Corrupt EirA-Feminine-Matriarchal AMCC-Entity Religion. There may even be some more divisions within those two, but that primary duality will suffice.
The true “Shield Split” is actually down the line between Masculine vs Feminine. It’s not all the fancy esoteric nonsense that’s intellectualized and wielded as a spiritual superiority complex in each of the religions. It’s just simple Masculine vs Feminine duality mechanics, which is the main distortion throughout this whole Matrix. It’s a distortion as fundamental as it gets: the Partiki’s two downstream polarities turning against each other and thus preventing higher Eternal Life Phasing, while they keep on fighting and deluding themselves as better than the other.
What I’ve had a problem with is what’s been done to the KS World by these split psychoses; and how the FT has been hijacked, exploited, wielded, and weaponized by certain people, against basic Spiritual Principles of Sovereignty, Individuality, Innocence, Wholesomeness, Truth, and God-Firstness.
But stepping back, KS itself is not wholly or intrinsically bad, and still has much to offer. It is the primary Spiritual Science we have on Earth, and it supersedes all the diluted and regurgitated half-truths of the New Age and its many offshoots.
Furthermore, there are many many many seekers who have not succumbed to those anti-spiritual corruptions nor to the splits — and there are still contributors in the larger KS World who have done great things, offering both the right things with the right energies. (IE people whose selves and works are not suffering from the main split-distortion of this Matrix while calling it the next best thing since Partiki Phasing.)
There is the great big niche of the KS World, and within it there is a Swampy Religion to be aware of. (Two polarized swampy religions, how nice.) But beyond that, there are still some really good things.
I had to get out of the Swamp before I could perceive and appreciate what I was missing out on. My hazy outlook over the KS World began clearing up when I gathered together the links/works/contributors which are in the KS Resources menu at the top right. That’s when I really began acknowledging what’s still available in the KS World: the quiet, functional, non-polarizing Value that’s been on offer the whole time.
I wish I had just stuck to these wholesome resources over the last two years. Life would’ve been much better, including the progress of my own spiritual studies.
But alas, I was meant to get my hands dirty in the Swamp as part of my Tour of Duty, to understand what’s going on there. Unless your own path includes field training like mine has, I’d highly recommend you skip the Swamp and just focus on the wholesome things.
Any resources I’m aware of, and which I align to or would recommend personally, are listed in the KS Resources menu.